So much going on

 I know it has been a while.  First I had a series of seizures jan. 1st.  I was in the hospital for a few days but nothing.  Supposely I can't drive.  I have been a bit.  Lots happening at my job.  My new aide has done so much to destroy me.   And I am being called on the carpet for stuff that should of been given to my last August.  I am trying to fix things but my staff is on a mission to do as little and twisting my words.  And I am supposed to do this with my medical condition.  I know God is in control and I am thankful for all the prayers and concerns.  Then this student who was not a behavior problem bit my aide when I was gone.  Frankly I was not sad for my aide.  Getting scratched, hit and sometimes bit is part of the job.  I have  stood up to the aides but to no avail but I am expected to handle everything yet my aides won't do anything.  I do see miracles every day.  My students are growing and God is helping me in a toxic situations.  just the right songs, scriptures, etc.  I want peace but I also want justice.  I see so many God winks.  But it is hard to be at a job where people don't like you and want to destroy you.  I went into teaching for the children and their personalities and learning.  It is sad when taking data, getting out of the work, having to decide to only take children who want to learn is your only desire said my classroom aide.  I pray for strength but I am open to a change this late in my career and retiring five to eight years earlier than I originally thought   I am glad God is in control.