My Fault Yet Not My Fault

 My students spent a total of ten minutes outside today.  Two of my students were just being really bad.  So they were sitting out.  Then we went in.  My students decided to not come in and the others were just being crazy.  My vice principal tells me what they are doing wrong and then tells me to go in she will watch the kids coming in.  One kid does not come in.  Then she does and I am written up for her not coming in.  It was only a spilt 30 seconds but enough that I could lose my job over it.  I feel so dumb.  My kids are wild and I feel really stupid.  But I look at this as an opporutnity.  No matter what happens I know God is in control.  Please forgive me for making a mistake and thank you Lord nothing happened.  Help me fix the mess.  Help me make the best of this bad situation and just work at making it work better. Hopefully I can move on and realize no one is going to help me.  I will just have to do it myself. 

Looks like my vice principal fessed up.  I have a bit more respect for her.  I was praying she would fess up but it still is another confirmation that this year will be over and either I will be somewhere else or my boss will be.  God is in control.  

Blown Away

 A lot has happened since I blogged last.  I went from sped to regular ed.  I went from upper eled to kinders.  Crazy huh?  Add to it all 10 of my flocks have emotional, behavior and mental disabilities.  But tomorrow I have 10 conferences  that will be challenging in different waysand I am blown away that God showed me how to do them. I will be talking to parents with academic deficits, future sped customers, Future Focusin and Adrerol Customers and students needing a therapist. One way was showing a house all of them will be completing.  Basic 8 skills that they should of gotten before they darkened me door but due to Covid it did not happen.  Thank you Lord for showing a positive visual I can help parents take the lead in properly parenting their child.  I trust you Lord when you told me that I was the only one who could do this.  I envy the teachers who spend 20 plus years in the same grade and know it so well inside and out.  I change every year and never master certain things.  This is my chance to get out of a failing system of sped and get some stability in my life.  It is chaos right now but if I just hold on each day I will eventually see the sense of this crazy.