No Eye Has Seen

Today was a day of mixed blessings.  First of all I had a great exercise session.  Coach OT really pushed me but I am so grateful that it will make me into a strong athlete.  My mom and I were having a lovely conversation when a BASE teacher burst into the room and wanted to know what happened to the rug the school had put in my room.  Kids were tripping and falling on it and it was really dirty and disgusting.  So I threw it away.  She said it belonged to the BASE program and I said fine I will pay for it.  Later I discovered it was an old rug from the school so no one will have to buy one.  Then later the consulting principal who hates me was all nicey nice to one of my students freaking out.  She was just having a tantrum.  It made me look really stupid.  But later as my students were working well together I asked God why can't they see this?  God answered me is it more important for Him to see it or them.  Also I had a nice compliment from a former special ed teacher.  She really encouraged me.  We had a Easter Stem project today with Peeps and the kids really rocked it.  The Lord helped me be calm and the kids were really well behaved. 

Later I was biking and my chain on my bike fell off.  I fell and hit my head and tailbone.  Not more than a minute later a biker helped me with the chain.  What a blessing. 

I don't know what the future holds for me.  I could still get called under the carpet for that throw a away.  I am still waiting for my eval.  But God is in control.

Chris

Consider the Source

Today an expert came in my room.  She has been there before and basically has not helped me at all the two years she has been in my room.  I hate it when she comes.  The kids are wild and she brings otter chaos to my room.  Today we are recovering from a student who really caused great harm to my room.  I am focusing on getting my students behavior in order. preparing for the coming events and getting back to order.  Then she comes in and makes me feel like everything I am doing right is wrong.  So I am making a choice to give it the Lord.  Even though I do not respect her authority and one of the reasons she is doing all this is to save her job I choose to filter out the wrong from the right.

It is not an easy task but I will self praise myself for the good that is happening.  Thank you Lord for handling my burden today.

Anger 101

emember this, my dear friends! Everyone must be quick to listen, but slow to speak and slow to become angry. Human anger does not achieve God’s righteous purpose. (James 1:19-20)

Don’t give in to worry or anger;
it only leads to trouble.
(Psalm 37:8)

People with quick tempers cause a lot of quarreling and trouble. (Proverbs 29:22)

Keep your temper under control; it is foolish to harbor a grudge. (Ecclesiastes 7:9)

But now you must get rid of all these things: anger, passion, and hateful feelings. No insults or obscene talk must ever come from your lips. (Colossians 3:8)

If you become angry, do not let your anger lead you into sin, and do not stay angry all day. (Ephesians 4:26)

People with a hot temper do foolish things; wiser people remain calm. (Proverbs 14:17)

But I promise you that if you are angry with someone, you will have to stand trial. If you call someone a fool, you will be taken to court. And if you say that someone is worthless, you will be in danger of the fires of hell. (Matthew 5:22)

Get rid of all bitterness, passion, and anger. No more shouting or insults, no more hateful feelings of any sort. (Ephesians 4:31)

But keep away from foolish and ignorant arguments; you know that they end up in quarrels. As the Lord’s servant, you must not quarrel. You must be kind toward all, a good and patient teacher, who is gentle as you correct your opponents, for it may be that God will give them the opportunity to repent and come to know the truth. (2 Timothy 2:23-25)

Today had an opportunity to let anger ruin my day. It all started with a foggy  yesterday.  I loathe driving in Chicago.  I am getting better at it but I just don't enjoy it.  No matter how many times I go to the same place I am still a bit nervous.  I am learning  my way around even with my GPS which may put me around and around.  As I waited for my friend I was nervous too that I was not going to make my pace for the race.  I had a job to do and I would quite disappointed if I did not make my job.  But my friend was really late and subsequently it also was backed up at the race and I barely made it to the start with only a minute to spare.  I was so mad at my friend who kept on changing her story and made me late to the race.  She finished on time and I struggled halfway.

I also was mad at her because she always is breaking rules and seems to get away with it.  But as I received a text from her this morning to walk I had to make a choice.  Was I going to continue to be upset with her or did I trust God to take care of the situation.   When I gave it over to God my anger stopped and I was able to be kind to her.

I am learning that it is perfectly acceptable to be angry with someone.  But what I do is up to how I give it over to God.  When I did that I was able to have peace and continue even with the challenges of the storm.

Things that Don't Make Sense

I had pretty good day.  My students are ready for the evaluation tomorrow and I feel prepared.  But this afternoon the strangest thing happened.  My one student hit, kicked several students and instead of keeping the student she was not removed.  I am not afraid of her but she is dangerous to others and also to herself.  I have data, lots of it and even a bunch of pictures.  I don't understand why they won't place her somewhere else. 

I was gone yesterday and my students told me several times that they missed me.  It felt good.  They also glad to have me back.  I am thankful for God'help but enough is enough.

Paper Cut Problems and Evil People

My husband and I have had some challenges lately with finances.  Mostly because of our own doing.  I am learning through this and other things that I need to use my money as Jesus would have us use it.  But in the midst of it I am realizing that the issues are paper cut problems.  Paper cuts hurt  a lot but they heal quickly and there is limited damage. 

Also I have been experiencing a lot of evil people lately.  It is hard to deal with when all they want to do is hurt you.  I choose not to be bitter anymore but just pray blessing on them and ask that they be busy with their own stuff but not just needless things but productive things.  Probably after I get back to my class my aide will tell me how it was a peaceful day without me.  I will just say ok. Not worth thinking of something brilliant or hurtful to say.  I leave the situation in your hands God.