Reflections of Blessings

 I am fully aware you grow through struggles.  This has been one of those weeks.  But I am also seeing the hand of God in my life.  I have been able to ask for forgiveness even though the situation was not my fault and to not argue with things I did not agree with but stand up for what I thought was right. I can't change others but I can change myself. 

Backfire of an Idea

 I have learned that even though I defended a idea I knew would not work I am at the point where nothing is changing so I am making the choice to let an idea backfire.  I need to do that with some people at my job that are toxic and also my husband.  It is so easy to try to fix it all.  I am at the point I can't so I am just letting life hit where it may.  But through it all I am so thankful to God how He is building me up for the next thing. 

Confrontation, Stability, Set Ups

It was quite the day yesterday and today.  I had to make and answer questions that were quite difficult.  I was quite proud of myself with handing the difficult things.  Lord give me wisdom today. 

Enjoying the journey

 

It seems like one thing after another with challenges.  A lot of times it is with people who are stupid.  But I can enjoy where I am at right now.

Yesterday I did the scripture.  It was crazy when I got up there.  The kids were not good.  I decided I need to find something to grab a large group and make it fast.  I am so used to small groups I need to refocus my focus. 

At just the right time

 Yesterday I had a meeting with a parent and team.  I was really nervous about it because I wanted to not ruffle feathers and be a good example to the school district.  I am thankful because the Lord took over and things went well.  I even watched myself and I saw how the Lord helped me have the difficult conversation.  God is amazing

Today is a new day.  I need to figure out how to get a kid who refuses to wear shoes go to gym, tell someone who is a higher up no and figure out how to not burn out my staff with one kid.  I also have to do baseline testing with a new testing protocol.  Last I have to tell someone at my gym that I cannot hang out with them anymore because his intentions are not good.  I could get overwhelmed but I trust God for the outcome.  

Of Course

 Yesterday just stunk.  It was one crazy situation to another.  things were wierd at the gym.  When tech was not working at work I finally said of course.  I need to ask more for help.  Then I came home and Mike had a tough day.  I listened.  Wishing I could have someone to talk to.  Thank you Lord for always being there.  I can't describle it but things began to take shape.  

Overcoming Challenges

 Yesterday was quite the day.  First of all my rascal really showed his true colors yesterday.  Mom sent in a note with lots of requests.  Third I found out another aide is leaving.  Fourth I found out my new SLP probably has dementia.  My boss leaned on me for support.  We think our old SLP had Covid and could of spread it in the room.   The new SW seems old too. 

On the other hand it looks like the new speech is coming to our room.  I did start to figure out the testing I need to do.  And did I meet with my boss and I was able to encourage her and just listen to her.  I am starting to find the line of my aides and I running the room and them being co teachers.

I am still glad I took this job.  It is overwhelming at times.  I still deal with someone I live with mental challenges.  I am just getting over my own drama and trauma.   I am glad you are still on the throne God.  

DIsernment

 I was at the gym yesterday and went by my friend to walk on the treadmill.  It was then things went highwire.  He told me I needed to be careful with my ankle because it could become broken more easily and that he had feelings for me.  I know I should not do anything stupid with the ankle but I refused to believe that report and moving forward I need to avoid him at the gym.  

My mom mentioned I needed to be careful with Elevation.  I am tired of playing church at church and ready for something real.  I have to only go every other week but I feel loved and valued there.  I need something more. 

Cohen and Brielle

 Today I did kids church.  I was sad that it seemed like everyone was in their own little pod.  But I got in kids church and got to minister to these two kids.  Second, at the end Cohen told me that his dad Pastor Charlie one of my faves was looking for a job.  And he was going to miss me at church next week.  I also got to minister to a few youths and helped keep Brille engaged.  I can't change the behavior of others but I can change myself.

Second my lesson kind of bombed.  Some factors were out of my control but I have learned from my mistakes and will do things differently.

inside your head

 I have mentioned how the Lord has helped me get into others heads and see things from their perspective.  

M with his spoiled and sped needs

Tommy and cracking his autism

Jaylen relating with him

Tyler with understanding his short term memory.

Staff with Michelle my bestie.

My other staff with their strengths and weaknesses.

Husband but that one is dicey because it is a continuous challenge.

Emergencies adverted for Mateo

 I have been able to speak Mateo.  I had a gut feeling about him and avoided a total meltdown several times.  Everyone is tired in my room.  Note to self.  Put the lights on and get activity going. 

More Praying Less Talking

 Today one of my rascals had a real fit.  Almost hurt me and also ruined one of my items.  I talked too much.  I should of talked less and not worried about the thing getting broken.  

Weekend Reflections

 It has been 12 days since kids have been coming to classrooms.  I have had to do so much revamping this year.  

I have been blown away with all the help I have gotten with this broken ankle.  The support.

I still struggle with improvement but I have seen more success than my entire teaching career.