Friday I was a complete basket case. First I found out my amazer was leaving. I tried to do the right thing but no matter what I seem to do it is never enough. I shot my mouth off when my boss tried to accuse me of doing something I had not done. My co teacher in the room shot her mouth off to my boss. I found out she heard what I said. I had been trying so hard to stay out of drama, not listen to gossip and not have an opinion on anything. Then I found out we have to completely change up our learning in just a few days since the Covid cases are rising. What a drama with my superintendent looking for anyone who disagreed with her regarding going to teaching on the computer.
I thought about what I needed to do which was impossible in just two days to get my parents ready to do this.
Ecclesiastes 5:2The Message
2 Don’t shoot off your mouth, or speak before you think.
Don’t be too quick to tell God what you think he wants to hear.
God’s in charge, not you—the less you speak, the better.
I am learning to just think before I speak and quickly learning who and whom I can trust. It is so sad to work in a toxic world where people talk behind your backs, tell your secrets, and are only out for themselves. It is such a toxic situation where trust is violated, people who fail are blamed and people seem to revel in ours faults. I am learning to just keep my mouth shut, pray for others who are struggling and keep going with people who constantly change their mind.
I am looking at this remote situation where I have to teach after break without students as a blessing. God works in mysterious ways. Initially it will be some work but I know that I can with His help succeed and maybe a bad situation where there is toxicity I can move from it and be in my little pod and just do me and my class.
