Retirement Ready

 I found out today I can retire.  That is good news.  The bad news is that it is really small but the good news is I can.  

Youre Fired

 Well I thought I would not get tenure, go on a remediation plan but instead I was not having my contract renewed.  

It is hard but I have not had time to really cry.  I updated my resume.  Sent info to my references to ask for their permission again.  I sent out some feelers for jobs.  Waiting is the hard part of the process but maybe the job I am supposed to have is not even available yet. 

Monday was okay.  I was able to keep my head and even had a few good lessons.  Why can't I learn the lessons ahead of time.  But it is okay.

Yesterday one of my students needed some advice.  I took my time and the Lord showed me what to do.  God is good. 

When I should be falling apart God is sustaining me.  Thank you Lord. 

More winks

 Yesterday after school mom read a devotional on Psalms 37.  It was just what I needed.  Then I went to the Ice Cream Fundraiser.  I prayed before I went in.  It was so neat.  I  sat with my student and his dad.  It was cool because I did not have to deal with the admin and teachers.  I did stop by afterwards and did some quick chit chat.  Thank you Lord for your help

More Winks

 I am learning about realizing my more winks.  I am not sure if I will have a job next year but I am grateful for someone who cleans up my mess.  I pray I can be a light, ask for forgiveness for my mistakes and accept what I can't understand. 

winks

Got to spend time over the weekend with family, hubs and friends.  Despite the chaos of today I see I am still loved.  Help me love others

Accepted welcome back to running

 I went for the second time in about a month to see all our running buds.  It was really nice seeing everyone.  I laughed and enjoyed the conversation and then when I returned from solo miles I was treated to hot coffee and more conversation.   I need this.  I need to get back to running and people who accept you for your unique self. 

The Trials of Gotcha but God's power

 Today I found out after the meeting I was being unofficially evaluated.  It made me mad that I literally had no warning and stuff I have not dealt with this year were suddenly brought up.  What is wrong with me that others can make mistakes and I get nailed for it all. I k

Despite the fact that this all happen  I know that God is much powerful.  He knows I need to work a few more years and that I am literally doing the best I can.  He has it under control. 

Pride

 The longer I am on this journey of this crazy year the more  I realize  how pride has gotten in my way.  I can't worry about other people think of me or how things occur.  

IT is so unsettling when you have stuff that is not finished and it is not certain where you will be next year.  

I guess I need to prepare for the worst.  I will be fired.  I will be at a crappy classroom next year.  I will end of at the same classroom next year.   I can't change others but I can change my own circumstances with the guidance of the HS. 

No Mistakes

 Today was a day where there were a lot of people making mistakes.  I made one and it just seemed magnified.  I was pretty discouraged with the whole tthing but then I thought about the good stuff I had did.  I can't change others but I am able to change my perspective with God's help

A Opportunity After Failure

 Today I got my eval.  IT was not good. I will not be tenured next year.  Lots was legit and some stuff was just crazy.  I  will do what I can and just do what I need to do. 

Out of My Confrol

 After listening to hours and hours of Mike's tirade of car shopping I just said I was wondering if we should pay off the house instead.  The next morning he went into a fit and basically put me my family and my wisdom down.  He apologized later but I am so tired.  Then I went to work and found out my staff is not happen with me again.  They can sit on their phones but if I take a time out on work I get nailed.  I am super tired of it all.