Today was quite the adventure. First of all I was really nervous about work. I went into my job and yes the classroom had changed but I also noticed that a lot of my stuff was being used. The teacher showed up an hour late, spent fifteen minutes after her lunch break, left half an hour early and basically ignored me the whole day. The last hour of the day she basically talked to her teachers and I was left supervising sensory. She also did not let me pass out what we are supposed to do for snack and only gave them one choice.
I spent an hour in the older sped room. It was really cool going from kid to kid and helping them out. I even used some strategies with this one girl that only seems to get yelled at and gets nervous and makes mistakes. Frankly I see a lot of kid me in her.
Then lunch was okay. No one announced when they were leaving except to go to the bathroom.
As I left my boss asked me about my day. I said great and she told me that she was very happy with what is going on in the room and that it is supposed to stay that way. Nice instead of how are you doing because I forced you to take a medical leave.
After work I stayed with the kinders teachers and we discussed my incident. The two teachers I feel are my friends were super supportive and stood up for me. Lots of gossip went on around me. I still don't trust the one but grateful they stood up for me. The sped I liked even felt that the situation was not fair and accurately descriped. I am glad I wrote the real truth.
As I reflect on the day I feel really not as tired and stressed but I am also sad. In my anger I took off 4 days instead of 1 for sick days for doctors' appointments. I may also take a vacation day or two.
Sped came in and they were bragging to the new teacher they were finally getting her curriculum. Boy did that make me mad because I have made and spent so much in my room. No one seemed to notice how well stocked my room was. Frankly I think they expected to have the same way as the year progressed on. Boy will they be surprised when there is no more paper towels, plates and other supplies.
It hurts but I just need to keep my head up, ask the Lord to have the face I need to have and frankly enjoy the break. Help me to be kind and learn what I can from her. I am not alone. As I wind down for the day I am hurting but more peaceful than usual.
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