Friday was an absolutely terrible day. First of all I forgot my lunch and had to go back but I made it back on time. Second I checked my Class Dojo account and a grandmother whom I had spoken to sent me an message telling me what a big deal it was about her grandson's cm cut. It was literally that small and that she had cleaned and rubbed it so hard it bled all over the bandage. It was nothing. Then another student came in screaming and crying. She had her fingers cut from some glass from another student on the bus. The bus aide lied and said it happened at home. Later she got kicked by a spoiled student in the classroom and I did not see it but I saw that the spoiled one had taken a weighted blanket from that first student. That led to two phone calls with a parent who has a phone number that has International Ministries on her label on the phone number and basically almost yelled two times at me for relaying this information which was not my fault. The last call she just hung up. Then as I came back from lunch the one aide was upset that I did not contact her or the parents about her behavior. I stated I did not see it and wasn't that her responsibility since she is contacting parents without the districts permission. The co-teacher stated the blanket was MM and I stated I brought in the blanket and it was for everyone who needed it. She continued to disagree with me and I decided that the blanket would go home with me. Later in the day she told me I was supposed to take Jamarr on the bus and I stated that Mrs. Rudy would do it. She again began to argue with me and when I approached my boss about it I was told that I needed to go to the bus no matter what. In the midst of the situation Polk called MM parent and said something about the situation. My boss also interrupted a phone call and I had to deal with the emergencies immediately. If I can I will pause and pray. If not a quick response like Help will have to do. I was so mad at myself that I wear my emotions on my sleeve. The Lord told me He made me that way and even though I suffer from it I can choose to make better choices.
Instead of causing any havoc in the classroom I will clean and pray. They have left it like a medium hordering situation. I pride myself that this has not happened lately for me.
I had a student have a 45 minute temper tantrum. I sure hope I don't get nailed for that since I had to hold him or he would of ran away. For the rest of the year he is going to basically get whatever he wants it is not worth getting in trouble for abuse and bad parenting. Later in the day he saw me and was happy to see me, did run away from me when I needed to fix something and none of my aides were helping. I also got to call his mother who stated he did that stuff at home.
Then I got on the train. Because it left 4 minutes late I missed the connecting train. The doors of the train opened up on the wrong side and I went after chasing the train and I was approached by an officer and had to show my ID and almost got a mandatory 500 fine and court date. I was so mad at the day I was really nasty to my husband. Despite the crappy situation we came up with a plan and my husband picked me up on a later train on the other line. In the future if this happens I won't go on train tracks, stay on the first train and call my husband or a cab when I got to the La Salle Station.
We came up with a solution and then we went to the concert. At the concert we met my oldest friend in the area and we talked. She has been a teacher about as long as me. I told her stupidly about the incident with the window and she told me about how she hated her job and the kids. How sad. Honestly I love the kids, don't know what to do in many of the situations and frequently get frustrated and mad from my boss and staff in my room and those outside of it. I need to not react when someone makes the horridness of the situation apparent. I pray for Cheryl that she will get the joy of children again and that next time something happens I will say the right thing.
I chose in the future to realize that disagreeing with any person including my boss in that school is pointless and stupid. I need to stay out of the gossip even if it means I can't share my feelings with everyone. Dogs come back to their vomit. I don't want to be a dog but a bunny who is loving, kind and carefree.
Last I did get the job in South Holland and it sounded great. I did have some concerns about travel time and also in the seedy neighborhoods. The pay was 20000 less than I am currently making right now and that I would lose tenture.
I pray for a more peaceful day. When chaos happens I will not be near the children. When the teachers are talking in a corner I will chose not to listen especially if it sounds remotely about me. Lord protect me and give me a day of peace. It is a sorry day when I have to do full crazy reports on students who have one cm long injuries and people can lie so well honestly I think they lie to themselves.
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