I am so down. I am so frustrated. Today someone I think threw away the doorbell. I could of with my frustration of things left on the floor and I threw away my own classroom doorbell. I have two students one who likes to push the teacher and the other who only used negative attention to get adults attention. Three more that pushed my buttons with their ADHD and ended up in a corner. I can't ask for help from my bosses and when I get reports of them not doing their jobs they won't deal with it.
Then my husband gets a call from his boss when he is trying to do the right thing. His boss who he has bent down backwards is yelling at him. My husband wants him to quit. I want him to get another job.
My second job where I have done my best takes my supervisory position and gives it to someone else. All for the sake of saving money. I don't say dumb things but I show them I am upset and the consequences of their choices.
My volunteer activity is getting less enjoyable. The kids are starting to really push me and won't listen. It is not fun anymore. I tell my pastor we want help and all he gets is someone who will volunteer once a month.
This church is such a mess. I listen to a pastor who goes off on rants and does not make a lot of sense when he preaches. I watch people I don't dare tell anything to still be there. I wish we went somewhere else.
I am staring to take control of my mental health by changing my medication. That is a struggle as my body and emtions adjust to the changes and the side effects of going on and getting off medication.
I complain too much to my mom and husband. She has had enough. He has had enough.
Please God do something. Let me find a healthy position in a unhealthy environment.
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