New Medicine, confronting unfair situations, supporting self and spouse and lack of support

 It has been quite a week.  I started on some new medicine for my anxiety and it has made a difference.  I am able to pause and deal with difficult decisions much better than I have before.I have been ears to quite a few situation where I heard that my boss was not doing her job.  My vice principal is also not dealing with situations.  Instead of getting angry I see God has shown me that I am not the only person upset about the undealt situation.  I also had a face to face meeting with sped telling them I wanted to see the progress of me coming back.  Looks like I will be doing my old position.   I found out this week that after supervising a position they have decided to give my position away to save money.  I am still angry about it but proud because I was able to call the person, face the situation and state my feelings respectfully, but stand up to a really bad decision.  I finally told the person in charge of a group I am a part of I will not be doing it again. My volunteer position was absolutely terrible Sunday.  This was due to lack of help from consistent volunteers, additional students and children who do not have proper parent disicipline.  I was so stressed out that Sunday praying and trying to fix things.  I even took things in my own hands and dealt with a long overdue situation.  I prayed about it, talked to my mom and she suggested that I confront the leader and tell him we needed more help.  He said he would try.  I was quite firm in my position.  I have decided moving forward I would change what I could, minister to my sped tribe but the leader would have to step it up since I am not in charge.  I have made some changes in my classroom and after my other teacher has been put in other positions I have been finally able to take back control of my room and make some tough decisons but negative and positive.  I am able to realize that difficult parents are just parents upset that they don't have control of their kids.  I found out today I probably am moving classrooms again to a better school, terrible vice principal but good principal.  I am making changes to my personal life like walking   It has been quite a week but there are only 55 more of those to go for the school year.