Lack of Planning Results in Bad Choices for Me

1 John 5:14-15 ESV / 91 helpful votes 

And this is the confidence that we have toward him, that if we ask anything according to his will he hears us. And if we know that he hears us in whatever we ask, we know that we have the requests that we have asked of him.

The last few days have been a bunch of cray cray.  Yesterday my boss who either was sick for a few days or took off came into my room and told me a test that was supposed to take just half an hour for a normal student I would have to do on that day.  So being the resourceful sped ed teacher I am I buzzed through it in just an hour with even the stupididy of several kids birthdays and numbers being typed in.  Then after school I found out that a computer glitch and my boss blaming me for doing things wrong resulted in my staying late and it made me late for several appointments.

Today without warning a inschool suspension student was put into my room.  She was not a bother but it was not even asked but expected.  In the past we were told we would get paid but that did not happen.  So illegally this was done because a reg ed student should not be in a sped ed room.

I have been accused of doing things that I did not do.  Called to the office like a bad kid and this is the eighth time I have been sent to the office for something I did not do.  This makes me so angry.  

I found out my mom is tired of me complaining and my husband has had enough.  My mental health is affected.  So much has happened from finding out a few friends had just been using me.  Feeling used.  Telling people no.

I am tired of stupid.