This has been quite the few weeks. First my situation with my student where I probably pushed the limits but I had to live through angry bosses and parents. But a student came to me who is functioning at a 4 year old level told me he was so sorry this whole thing happened. I have told him time and time again it is not his fault. That is not a chance meeting. The Lord somehow allowed him to think out of his normal patterns and it was a way for vindication for me.
Yesterday staff meeting was such a mess. More and more confusion. Less doing what is asked or required. People getting written up. No administration support. Just a lot of chaos. My students sick and still coming to school.
Having to do stuff that is other peoples jobs. Decisions being changed out of emotion with out my knowing. Having to do things I should not have to do and dealing with irresponsibility that is made to look like my fault.
Sadness instead of anger when I went to my inlaws. Emptiness in the midst of luxury. No hopes, no dreams. Just survival.
My pet dying. Knew it was coming but did not expect it so soon. He chose me to hold him as he died despite the fact my husband is the primary caregiver.
Working on a certification that seems to the typical person not important or impossible but realizing I need to keep going because it is part of God's plan.
2 Corinthians 4:18
New International Version
So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.
I am glad that today I got to see my situation at work justified. Had the pleasure of holding my dying pet and saying goodbye. The peace knowing the Lord will keep me healthy in sickness. Not taking ownership of other people's messes.
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