Wow what a week

 Never in my life have I had a student like Sebastian.  He was only 5 but I never heard anyone swear as much as him.  I saw PDST, Bi Polar, AHDA, Dillustional and also properly some demonic opression and possession.  This child was not only constantly on the move but also doing dangerous things all day.  Some days I tallied over 250 to 300 dangerous behavior.   I will continue to pray for Sebastain but I feel like I have been part of a war. 

Everyone had answers but frankly they were good to the world but absolutely stupid.  I saw people who wanted to help me but I also saw others who used my situation to make themselves look better.

This weekend has been good.  I needed some rest from the war.  I did not get written up.  I still have my job and this child is gone. 

I also have some kids that are really challenging as they are 15 to 18 months of age.  I am supposed to teach them yet their academic abilities are so limited.  I wonder how much is a DD and others environment.  

Friday night I saw some people who in the past have caused me damage.  And I looked at them and realized my life was better because of their mistakes. 

I see so many believers that I considered great people of God go back and either stay where they are or see things that are evil are not acceptable to me anymore.

Thank you Lord for helping me to be strong.  Thank you for all the good and bad experiences.  

I am now debating what worlds i am returning to.  Running groups.  It is so much easier to run alone and on my time table.  But after all the posts for my birthday I wonder what I should go back to.  They need Jesus too.

I am also thinking of leaving the WBT community.  I may never get to that level of teaching and the pressure and the stress of always having to be on and trying new things and especially this year I can't use any of it I wonder if it is my time to say goodbye.