BCBA, Running, Groceries, Sunday

 

On Friday I had a situation that I did not listen.  God calls us to be quick to listen and slow to anger and Talk.  I blew it because I chose not to listen.  At first I was beating myself up for it but then I realized it was an opportunity to learn to listen and let the past be the past.

Sunday I was doing a last minute lesson.  My friend had prayed for my music but not this.  I learned from a student how to more effectively teach a verse and the idea from God popped into my head to make gestures for the key words.  God is good.

I was running a half and my goal was to do at least 6 miles at pace.  In the meantime I was able to encourage someone.  She thanked me the next day.  It is good to feel used for helping.  But at the end I ran my pace and left her behind.  I also knew I needed to care for myself and make safe choices so I would be all right.  That is good too. 

I was in the store today and I was at the check out.  I saw a person taking advantage of the clerk and she was getting nervous.  When the clerk walked away I stated to the dishonest person I was frustrated because all of us needed to get to work.  The lady in front ( also black) also confronted me that it was a Jewel problem not the dishonest person.  I am glad I did not say anything after that but I am proud of me that I kept my mouth shut when I knew I was dealing with fools.  They could of been white or black but it was the situation.  I will not go to the store if I am in a hurry or for my safety.  I was worried that the person would come over and hit me or say more stuff but I saw her go back in with some groceries.  I just prayed for my friend the clerk.  When I woke up I heard the song Bless Me.  Even though the person said God bless I knew she did not know God.  Thank you Lord for your protection.

Today one of my students fell in the hallway.  She bruised her head very slightly.  She is quite wobbly.  It happened under my aide’s watch.  I sent her to the nurse and later I called the mother.  We have had a history where she accused me of something I did not do.  I called her and said it just like my boss told me to.  It went well.  I kept my cool.  I worked it out. I will take her to the bathroom by herself from now on.  I overcame a 15 year fear. 

I was observed today.  This was the first time in my life I was not a complete basketcase.  Also it was an hour and a half late.  I kept my cool.  The BCBA came in completely disrupted my room.  They are paid to make things better.  I wanted an eval so a kid would be out of my room in the right setting for her.