I have been feeling like I am in a transition time. I am not coaching marathon training this summer. I should of not for the past couple of years but there was this part of me that just could not give it up. The signs were there that I was finding joy in it. The people who did not appreciate my hard work. People putting me down.
Children's church and I feel like I am in the outside looking in. For the past few years I felt like i had found my niche with games, music, sped etc. But something happened these last few months. I can't put my finger on it but it is not the same anymore. I am learning I don't have to fix everything. I just pray and ask God how to handle a tough situation.
Then my regular job. My boss telling me that I should not be a teacher essentially. I have been doing this for the past thirty one years. I watch people getting away with stuff and I can't even breathe without getting in trouble or walking on egg shells even time I see my principal.
And my part time position. Out of the blue I am not supervising and just staffing. Then today my supervisor wimps out and I don't even get asked for my old position. One person is gone and they don't find a replacement. I see how dangerous this job is getting and I realize it is not worth the money, stress on my body and I just wonder why. I am glad I am not there for only three more weeks.
I just know that I am in the midst of a transition and I am not sure where I am headed but I know I need to stay close and things will eventually work out.
Where am i supposed to go. I leave it in your hands.
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