Tired of the Whys

My earliest childhood memory was one of the birthday party where I was having to share it with a stranger.  The thing that was the most frustrating was that it felt like I did not even exist.  Fast forward 50 years later.  This has continued to happen over and over in my life.  Until recently I continued to wonder why but now I am learning to be content with not having to know and if I never know that is okay.

There are many roads that have recently closed to me as opportunities.  I initially got really upset because I really felt like I was called to do these things.  But now I am learning that everything has a purpose.  Other doors have opened and I am learning to be content that the Lord has my back and I am talented in many ways.  I am learning to trust Him that He will find other avenues to use my gifts.

Second instead of getting frustrated by getting treated unjustly I am slowly learning that in time if I am supposed to know the reasons why I will and if not that is okay too.

After doing this I have seen the Lord work in tremendous ways.  Some of the whys have been revealed to me and some have been not.  But that is okay.  The Lord has opened other doors for me and I rejoice in using my talents for Him.

I rejoice in the Lord's favor in my life and that wisdom I get from Him in the still open opportunities.

The Bible Says in 1 Corinthians 12:7-10

Therefore, in order to keep me from becoming conceited, I was given a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. ⁸ Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. ⁹ But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. ¹⁰ That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.