Easy Points

Today was my last unofficial evaluation.  My goodness what a horrible day to do it on.  Right after an extended break and everything that would of gone wrong did.  My kids were off due to the holiday, my phone went off, I was not myself and frankly it just stunk.   I could see her writing when I had my phone go off.  Easy points.  It cracks me up that I feel like a total gotcha moment.  It is sad when someone does not have your back.  I am glad God does.

I Peter 5:8 says

8 Be sober-minded; be watchful. Your adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour.

Conceal then Reveal

In so many areas I am wondering why stuff is happening.  Why people who should not prosper do and how long I have to deal with the unfairness.  But then I see God's hand with handling difficult situations and how I respond to others that I could not do a few months ago.  There is my reward.  I give the other things to You God.  How long must my aide be so mean talking behind my back poisioning me, my friend who is not doing her job getting away with stuff and not getting the credit for the hard things I do.  But I know the most impostant person who should see when I do right is the Lord.  How even at the end of the year my centers are great, my difficult kids can be calmed down literally in seconds, and that I am getting it all done even with so many stops.    I give it to you God.

Even a Fool is thought smart...

Today I was goofing off with my kids and my aide tried to get my attention to say something ignorant and I ignored her.  It was tough and she even brought in the boss that hates me but I just kept doing what I was doing right.  Mom has been telling me to finish well.  I know saying stuff back won't work with my aide but ignoring her will.   But it is still hard.  With the grace of God it will get easier and easier.

◄ Proverbs 17:28 ►

New International Version Even fools are thought wise if they keep silent, and discerning if they hold their tongues. King James Bible Even a fool, when he holdeth his peace, is counted wise: and he that shutteth his lips is esteemed a man of understanding.

Finishing Well and Little Blessings

I have been noticing little and big blessings a lot in my life.  First the small things from a parking space, not having to wait in line and God's grace in the midst of everyday and significant trials.  I am learning to finish well.  It is hard when others are cruel and I am learning a soft answer turns away wrath.    But it is still a challenge but with the grace of God I will finish well.

Legacy, Leaders, Living

Proverbs 15:1-3

15 A gentle response turns away anger,
but a harsh word stirs up wrath.
² The tongue of the wise treats knowledge correctly,
but the mouth of the fool spouts out folly.
³ The eyes of the Lord are in every place,
keeping watch on those who are evil and those who are good.

New English Translation (NET)

Generally I am totally spot on with my kids.  I try to do things right but yesterday I had it with my aide and I left as she was getting them.  Then she had someone come and get me because apparently she was not watching them or complained.  Initially I was embarrassed because I had got caught for once in a blue moon not watching my kids and then anger that she has done everything to make me less than desirable to my students.  I ask God how long will I be put down.  I ask God what is wrong with me.  How long will the terror of her anger be upon me and my students.  

I don't do things like the general teacher.  I think before I act.  I take the heat for some stuff that is really not my fa  I ult I try to be fair even if I don't personally like you.    All stuff that good leaders do.

But then I thought about some of the situations that have occurred and the Lord showed me them in a new way.  I can slightly see why she reacted the way she did.  But I wanting to know how long.

Sometimes I watch myself in action and I know it is the Lord guiding me.  I am able to be calm in difficult situations, react appropriately when all crazy breaks loose and be nice.  I see my students being nice.   But how long

I don't want to live in the past.  I see a sign about a baseball championship that occurred 10 years ago.  I don't want to be a part of a legacy but I want to live.

I am learning so much.  I am even doing new things at the end of the year.  I am fixing things.  But I know that would not be possible without God.  

I have an interview at another place for the summer.  Part of me wants it and part of me does not.  Also I am a bit concerned about the new.  What if I fail.  What if I am out of God's will.

I know I am supposed to be in that classroom this year.  I know I am supposed to go on that interview.  I know it is not an accident.  Lord have your way and will.  I choose to see things from a different perspective even if it makes me look back.  But I stand strong that the prophecy that was given to me in fourth grade that my playground is my training ground is so true today.

End of the Comparison Game

The one time I decide to let my guard down I get caught.  Initially I thought its not fair.  Then I woke up this morning and the scripture from Acts 11:18 really hit me.  I need to hold my peace and glorify God.  I am working on not comparing myself to others.  I am just doing what I am supposed to do.

Stupid People

Stupidity runs rampid in so many areas.  But this scripture says it all.  Help me not to be one of those stupid people.

Proverbs 14:17-19

¹⁷ Short-tempered people make stupid mistakes,
and schemers are hated.
¹⁸ Stupidity is the lot of the naive,
but the prudent are crowned with knowledge.
¹⁹ Evil people will bow down before the good;
wicked people are at the gates of the righteous.