God Has a Sense of Humor

 Yesterday I was talking with my mom and I told her that I felt I would be doing some music ministry soon.   I can see God talking to his Son and the Holy Spirit and saying check this out.  She does not know how soon this is going to be.  I got to the starting line of the race and they were asking for volunteers to sing the National Anthem.  I did not even think about it I just went up there and did it.  The only problem was that my singing took a lot of my energy.  By mile 3 I was toast.  I am still glad I did it but probably wont again.  As I sang I know it was totally the Lord and my voice was not mine.  

I believe God gave me peace to do it but I also think it was a tell tale thing that showed me I need to maybe in the future reconsider my medication.  Setraline has totally slowed me down in the running department but I am so thankful for it because I am so much calmer than before.

Welcome to a new Opportunity

 I got a welcome bag from my new job.  It is so cool.  I am so pumped.  I could hardly function the first hour.  What a difference from the other school.  I got gifts from my bosses but it was always sign the paper and I went to their office.  Or if they brought it to me I would have to kiss their feet.  Not this time.  

The classes at the Park District have been not too stressful this summer.  The attendance has been light and often it was just one person.  

Thank you Lord for getting my confidence up again. 

How God Sees Us

 I wonder sometimes why stuff happens when it is but God sees us as we are.  Yesterday morning I got my hair cut.  I mean really cut.  I had decided on two inches on the back.  The person who waited on me I was not so sure because she was older.  But then as she worked she was super detailed and careful.   I am learning to not look on the outside but look in the inside.

Its not fair and how long

 I have been struggling with some it is not fair moments.  First of all my husband got a birthday present from my inlaws.  At Christmas I really got jipped out of some gifts.  I never based my gifts of my parents but it is so obvious that stuff is so important to my inlaws I feel jipped.  I even said cash instead of junk or things I don't want.  But they still do it.  I took all my gifts from them at Christmas and I just put them in the Goodwill bin.  But then the hubs gets a gift card.  I will probably use the majority of it because I am the one who goes to Starbucks but it still hurts.

I used to be part of a teaching community.  For the last year or so it has been pretty much nothing but stress.  I quit going to the meetings and basically I was soon forgotten.  The majority of the group leveled up to new positions and I stayed where I was at.  A few years ago I stressed myself out like they are doing to no avail.  I still believe in the method but I am glad I not facing that weekly stress in my life.

I watch in so many situations in my life where I have been the constant and I am forgotten.  I wanted to be on worship team but instead they pick people who want to perform.

I quit my volunteer gig as a pacer.  Only one person mentioned anything.  I am glad for not having the stress but sad that it seemed like no one noticed.

My classes at the park district even seem like they are falling flat like a pancake but no shows and lack of interest. 

I did not even try the Bible study at my church because I feel so much like an outsider.  

How long God.  How long?

Click Bait

 Yesterday I was approached at my yoga class and told they wanted changes.  I can do that but I hesitated to ask the Lord how to do it.   She also told me I would probably die in less than 10 years because i could not balance a tree on my leg and that the internet had told her that.  

Today i got an email from my new boss and she welcomed me HOME.  Also my current aide I am working with was super encouraging.   I need to focus on filling and not emptying  

I also prayed about how to handle a rascal.  So much different today than yesterday.

I can't fall for Click Bait from others who disapprove.  I need to go to realiable sources such as my new boss and my aide to let me know how I am really doing.

I looked at yesterday's situation and realized I needed to talk less but the book I should of kept.  I can't make people happy all the time.

Peace to Let Past Go

 This would of been the second week of marathon training.  It was hard last week to see all the pictures but frankly I am glad I am not coaching for the marathon.  Then this would of been the first week of my SSSRA fitness class.  I frankly feel peace.  So nice to not have all the responsibilities.  

I have time to do the really important things.  Like be a witness to a formally grumpy neighbor. 

What a Difference a Week Makes

 

I was really dreading teaching summer school.  I had this challenging class and really my boss.  And then I did not want to disappoint my current boss.  

But this week has been really good.  I have been able to teach and I work with a nice teacher.  We have had our challenges with the grades, the lesson plans but it all worked out for good.