I have been struggling with some it is not fair moments. First of all my husband got a birthday present from my inlaws. At Christmas I really got jipped out of some gifts. I never based my gifts of my parents but it is so obvious that stuff is so important to my inlaws I feel jipped. I even said cash instead of junk or things I don't want. But they still do it. I took all my gifts from them at Christmas and I just put them in the Goodwill bin. But then the hubs gets a gift card. I will probably use the majority of it because I am the one who goes to Starbucks but it still hurts.
I used to be part of a teaching community. For the last year or so it has been pretty much nothing but stress. I quit going to the meetings and basically I was soon forgotten. The majority of the group leveled up to new positions and I stayed where I was at. A few years ago I stressed myself out like they are doing to no avail. I still believe in the method but I am glad I not facing that weekly stress in my life.
I watch in so many situations in my life where I have been the constant and I am forgotten. I wanted to be on worship team but instead they pick people who want to perform.
I quit my volunteer gig as a pacer. Only one person mentioned anything. I am glad for not having the stress but sad that it seemed like no one noticed.
My classes at the park district even seem like they are falling flat like a pancake but no shows and lack of interest.
I did not even try the Bible study at my church because I feel so much like an outsider.
How long God. How long?
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