It was a good weekend. I enjoyed being off and literally not doing that much other than walking. And Sunday playing with kids, allowing myself to be part of their imaginary games and enjoying kids.
But I wake up this morning and my sleep score is non restorative. I wake up stressed with the chaos I will probably face this week. And I say to myself it is good I feel this way because it is essential to remember the whys of me being forced to leave, the challenge of finding other work and making the decision to retire.
I count down the days of crazy. I plan my remainder of the year and I see a slight finish to all the chaos.
I see where I am made for kids ministry and how I do enjoy the challenges and the kids that I am blessed to minister to every week.
I think about the time I figured out I was forced to resign. It was literally 75 days and now it is 18. How with only the help of the Lord I was able to keep myself sane.
The foundations of a already crazy classroom are beginning to show the cracks and sometimes the gushes of chaos I did not see before. I see the double standards of mistake making, the pressure, the gossip and I see if I was forced to stay within the situation I probably would of had a breakdown.
Thank you Lord and show me how to bless someone today.
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