Yesterday was just one bad day with lots of layers. First I had a meeting with one of my bosses. She felt insecure so she used that opportunity to make me feel bad. I realized that immediately and then I did what I could to build her up even though it was me that figured out the situations. Then we had a group meeting and it was another huge disaster. I had shared that our one person who is lazy needs more guidance. Instead of talking with her pr.ivately they publically praised her. It was nuts. Then I found out more work I have to do and stuff that was someone else was put on me. Then I was blamed for stuff that were lies. Also the kids were nuts in music. It was like a spirit of crazy was in there and then the rest of the day was just nutso. Finally the parent who talked behind my back lies and wanting unrealistic expectations was late picking up her granddaughter.
I am proud of myself though I realized the boss just did not like herself and I instead kept to facts and thanked her for ( nothing) Noted that in the futre I will not call her for help. Also I asked for someone to help me and she refused.
Then I figured it would happen but I was also told that I would not be reinbursed for my stuff I was told I could have. Moving forward I will just expect I will not get paid.
I complained to my mom and my husband and it did not do anything for help.
Moving forward I will do what I need to do not to lessen my stress. I will expect that I will be blamed for stuff that is not my fault. I will not get the help I need. People will get away with stuff and parents will talk behind my back.
I can't control others but I can control myself. And as much as my ego is hurt I need to stick to the facts.
And for next year I will be in prayer about how to handle situations including a position change.
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