This has been quite the weekend. First of all I wanted to see about the curriculum that I thought I was told I had to use. When I reached out to others for help the OT got frustrated with me, the para I had suddenly flipped out with texts and an email and the BCBA was upset because she was mad at me. My boss and I had a good talk about it. They meet without me on Monday. It is still such a mess.
Second I was dreading seeing my in laws. They are so toxic. I am hoping after all of this they will just move away. Yesterday I was going to skip seeing them and my husband got upset and said all kinds of things verbally threatening me with saying he was going to tell it all with them. Then he said he felt abandoned. I told him I was going with him and that I did not want him to feel abandoned. I was able to separate my feelings and just do what was right. I also told him I understood what abandoned meant and that we needed to have a talk about this after the funeral. He wanted answers and statements just then. I said it was not the time and place. I kept my cool when I saw them. The same stupid as before.
I need to pray for a clear head, wisdom in my mouth and mind and to look at things factually not emotionally.
I am thankful for a boss that supports me, teachers who include me and the fact that I am learning how to separate facts from feelings.
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