unseen seen

Yesterday was quite the day but I am thankful for unseen seen, creativity, flexibility, no more ieps, avoiding fear of man,and God's wisdom.  The Lord must have some amazing plans at Elim

And the insanity rolls on

 First my co teacher comes in half an hour late.  The admins bring in possible canidates for my job.  They say one thing and do another.  I keep the class rolling and crazy happens.  They argue over stupid stuff.  I am so tired of this.  Can't wait to be in the teens soon.   I see where things are not fair and frankly I just don't care anymore.  This might be the first day I take an additional Hydroxine.  Glad I have tools to use.  Admins suddenly act like blond airheads when they are faced with some tough students.  coteacher kisses their butts and acts like they are a god of something.  

The Last IEP

 Today is the last IEP for me.  After that I will be finishing out the year and this summer just a para.  It is such a good feeling.  No one knows my secret of retirement.  In a way it is exciting knowing that there is a end to this crazy.  And no one knows it at all. 

Today I am thankful for a good Bible study. On my walk before the study  I also heard someone crying out in either pain or something spiritual.  As I got closer it got more intense.  I prayed a lot but I realize I am in a war everyday.

Yesterday was a tough day.  One student in particular is really struggling.  He calls out to Allah but I know who is the real source.  It is to Jesus.

I got to witness to my sub and share the Lord.  You never know where you will be used.

I am realizing that even though the medicine is helping me this is still a world of crazy and that I need to be thankful for the medicine and how important it is.  

I don't live with the realization of a demon popping out every corner but as I am going through all this I am more aware of the spiritual forces within. 

Crazy Times and Cracks in the Foundation

 As a homeowner there is always something that needs to be fixed.  Sometimes you take care of it right away and other times you just let it go.  I have some foundation in my basement I dealt with a few years ago and it is slowly needing repair again.  

This would explain my current job situation.  I could go to specifics from unruly students, two many bosses, lack of support and trying to make things with less and expecting more.  Today is a perfect example of that.  But also an opportunity.  

I see that many of the things I created or tried to do actually worked out and I am grateful for the opportunity to work them out.  I am not a bad teacher, I am not crazy.  I am just in CRAZY.

I see God's wisdom in chaos.  Today my bosses were supposed to spend the day with us.  It is only about two hours and school is getting out and they have not made an appearance.  Glad I am organized but at then end of the day to view is also crazy.  And one of the teachers is gone.  

I am so glad there are only 22 days left.  With God's help I can do it.

I see God's creativity with the crafts I have made, the games I am creating, the Science and social Studies with NO real curriculum.  

Ding DIng the Light Went On

 I am realizing that many of the things I did are okay this .  From Science, to tech, to Social Studies, and crafts it was okay.   Thanks Lord for giving me another perspective. 

calm weekend

This was a nice weekend to unwind and refocus.  I am thankful for my new job, my coming retirement,  a nice hubby,  nice house,gett8ng over my cold, figuring things out,  24 days left of school and just seeing the end of a tough situation.   

hard stuff

Today I had and am standing up for myself.   It is hard when it is all staff against you but I am glad I was able to do it.  It is not about winning but doing what is best for kids.