too much

 Yesterday was sure a crazy one for the books.  First my boss was supposed to visit.  She only stepped for about five minutes in the classroom.  Then my co teacher spent basically the whole morning out of the room gabbing with admin.  She said she was going to talk about me.  And the lazy aides did not help at all and I had good but different activities for the kids.  Then my boss came in and basically it was story hour for our group.  I basically ignored her because it was just a waste of time and I had work to do.  In the midst of this I had to do stuff at the last minute for others who are basically having me do their work.  

It is hard to do the right thing when no one is looking. 

It is the weekend.  I am thankful for a break.  Thank you Lord for helping me

Christ in Chaos

 Yesterday it was a series of crazy.  But I am thankful that the Lord helped me stay calm.  First report cards.  What  a mess. Last minute stuff and I am thankful the Lord helped me.  Then students freaking out.  Again calm.  And today my boss is spending the day with us.  Lucky us.  I am going to be glad when 2:45 is here.  Hopefully no more crazy is coming.  But if and when it does I trust in God. Thanks Lord and help me to be calm, slow and positive.  

AM I THE ONLY ONE WHO SEES?

 Last week someone came in smelling like reefer.  No one else seemed to notice it and my sense of smell is terrible.  Yesterday I saw things,  no one else saw and I am seeing how misfortune, jealous, anger , not fair and anger are drugs I definitely need to avoid.  I choose to not be prideful with this.  I am grateful and I just have to leave this crap in the Lord's hands.  

My worth and value is not in my job but in what I am in Christ and what he has done for me.  

My teaching has gotten better, I was able to do scary things, and I am learning to be more sensitive to the Holy Spirit.  

Thank you Lord for teaching me to do things right. Let me not look to the left or right and protect me from evil today.

Not give the Devil a Foothold

 Yesterday I did something I had not done in almost 35 years.  Please the bells at bell practice.  I don't know what came over me.  People pleasing or that I wanted to give something tough a shot but I helped with practice yesterday.  As I played (not perfect) I overcame my fear when I played the bells just 35 years ago.  I need to remember this when things get hard.  Remember how the Lord helped in the past and press on to the present.

Thank you Lord for providing me the strength to do hard things.  Let me remember this when work gets hard.  When it gets twisted. I can't change others but I can change with the annointing of God's help. 

a new beginning with death

I have been at one of my favorite places  sc.  I see even in death there is beauty.  I must die in order that new beginnings will begin in Christ

stand

Today I overcome report cards, progress reports, choir, lazy people and fi ally the fact I people making up stuff.  I lovethe song Stand. With the grace of God I know who I am

The rules that keep ever changing

 Today I got in trouble for checking on lies.   My principal called my admin and I got nailed for others lies I just hope I have a job and when I asked for feedback on my stuff I got called under the carpet.  I give up.  No matter what I do I get in trouble.

I pray for wisdom to not make mistakes.  That I can fly under the radar.  I can make it to Christmas and I give up on stuff.