Doing things right

 I sold some pens today.  It was 18 dollars and a two dollar tip.  Same amount as the gift I  gave someone at a wake.  God provides and restores.

Things I can't change

 I am learning about dealing with stuff of things I can't change.  It is okay and sometimes I don't need to talk

God's call

 I am learning to be open to God's call.  Yesterday I paced a race.  I got to walk with some great people.  As I finished at the halfway point I met with a non verbal autistic young adult.  I put my hands in mine and I realized God has called me to the right places at the right time in sped.  But also that I need to step up my sign.  

I am grateful for the opportunties I have been given. 

Not my fault frustration

 I have been suffering from the it is not my fault syndrome.  To days off to making mistakes and I am blamed for the error and the foolishness of poor planning.  I can't others but I can change how I respond.  

Chaos

 I work really hard to have peace in our room but today someone came and caused total chaos.  I say later she was with something that was not her business.  I can't change others but I can myself. 

A Different Way

 I  had a nice Easter yesterday.  I had a nice dinner with my inlaws and a nice Easter with kids church.

I am really trying to not get frustrated with stuff and let time and God take over.  

I can't change others but with God's help I can change me. 

Deer Story

 Yesterday I was on a long run and several times I saw deer and their families.  It was a little frightning but super cool.  One deer just stood there and I noticed he was not afraid of anything.  He or she had several scars but just stood there straight and tough.  It kind of reflected upon my life.  I have had several battles in my lifetime but with the Lord I have been able to stay strong.  I just need to rely on him.

Also saw some bunnies, purple violets ( my second favorite) and after my event ran into several people I had known.  I can't change the past but under God's directions I can change the future.

I have been taypering off my meds.  I frankly don't recommend it but it has been okay.  I guess it is good to finally feel more and use that experience to make me more normal again.

Last my bloodwork came back and my test results.  I  need to watch my cholestrol, sodium, and calcium.  I can't change others but with Christ's help I can do it.

Last no prayer is dumb.  I fasted and I could not go to the bathroom.  I asked the Lord to help me pee and he did.  May I continue to remember the little and the trival.