Yesterday was just awful. I had to spend the whole day worrying about my meeting with my boss. And the meeting was hard. Some of it was true and some just plain a lie. I feel so defeated with trying to do the best thing and it was the wrong thing.
I am thankful for Brandon my union rep, I will definitely get on the union once the dusts clears, my sister in law who supported me, my husband, my dad praying with me, my relationship with God and that He has my back.
I am grateful for a peaceful day at school, learning how to get closer to the Lord, seeing things from another perspective, weekend, a good run and most of all that I belong to the Lord.
I woke up this morning to some new revelations. Yesterday I got a list of inventory. I felt bad as I began to log everything the school had bought. I felt so betrayed that I had tried to do the right thing. Then I felt bad helping the gym teacher bring in the water toys and I got in trouble for that.
I am learning that I need to do whatever my boss tells me to do that is ethical, not worry about what is not right and then leave the its' not fair to the Lord. I am committed to a study of Who I am in Christ .
I am thankful for a supportive staff, my husband, my ability to fix things, bunnies, good healthy food, a productive day on Wed, and most of all I walk with Christ and not by myself.
Swallow Cliff, Bible Group, Starbucks, Disernment, Mom Husband, Day off and Most of all God who has my back
I am thankful for salvation, getting out five minutes early, working with a new student, having a good run, new haircut, Taco Bell out of my system, calm evening, clothes that make me happy, being productive
I am thankful for seeing seven bunnies on my run today. I had a nice run and prayed about some things. I realized I am just experiencing spiritual warfare and I just need to just trust God.
it was a better day. I was able to find common ground with love with Konnor, walks with Matteo, Muhammad as a helper, and hugs with Jonas.
I was also able to start with make peace with the toxic people i work with and stay humble.
Also I had some help with my day.
It is still super tough and I am totally spent. But it is better.
