Death and Life

 I went into work today and my boss told me to go back to the old room.  She was pissed.  I lost my leadership position.  Initially the staff talked behind my back.  I just kept silent but the resource teacher told them to be quiet.  At the end of the day she said she really liked working with me. 

I read this morning about the importance of being kind to myself and others.  Because I am with Christ I can leave others with their dignity.  It is embarrassing to be at work but I have to remember who I am in Christ.  This mess was not created by me but others.  All I have to do is be me. 

Mike got Covid again.  I found my phone and id.  I also found the go gone fast.  God has got me. 

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 I am not sure what is happening today.  I know that the Lord will do something through other people's mistakes and even my own.

Sunday I was encouraged by someone I had their son the first year teaching.  Monday I was encouraged by someone who told me their story and glad I am going elsewhere.  I had some encouraging emails from my prayer partner.  

I just want to finish and get it over with.  

Yesterday

 I did not handle yesterday very well.  I  kind of went coo coo and tried to do things in my own strength.  I also put everyone under the bus again.  

They told me I could not take anything home that was mine.  Screw it I am done pretty much with my stuff.

I had a parent complain about wet pants.  I guess I need to change her every hour.  She runs away from me.  

I am the tree that has been cut and my stump is rotting.  I pray that eventually my shoots will show.  My roots are deep.  

Crazy but

 I have been praying for a way to get Ava up when she plops.  The Lord showed me having her sit on a chair and then either going forward or backward she will go back to the room.  It has been a challenge with these two beloved rascals.  Ava likes to bolt and make a mess,  Malyasia just likes making a mess.  The next six days I will just focus on them and forget about other stuff.  Second I will pray the peace of Jesus constantly.  Third I will remember that I have been put in a crappy situation.  You don't put a druggie working at a pharmacy or a overweight person at a candy store.  

I got my loaner yesterday when I took my car in to get the engine light repaired.  The people were very nice.  I am thankful for getting my car repaired for free when I was the ding a ling who put diesel in the gas tanks.

Last my group leader sent a testimony I did for More than Able.  It went with the sermon.  I am thankful for the response and continuing to pray what I should do with Elevation. 

Stuff

 Over the weekend I got to sing the national anthem and had an incredible service at Elevation.  I want to so make the jump but I feel that the every other week is the answer right now.  

Yesterday it was decided that I would be in my friend's room but later I was put in the older sped room.  That was a problem because my rascal is quite the handful.  So I was totally unhelpful to my student but I got through it.  

This morning I woke up to You Say and God is on the Throne.  I also in the last days got a prayer warrior praying for me.  I am so blessed.

I feel like the others won but I only have 7 days left.  

Today

 I left school early today.  I was verbally threatened by my co idiot and went from bullying me to yelling at me in front of students.  

I went to the office.  Lost it and got prayed for.  Got a word from the Lord and put everyone under the bus.  

Talked to the director of sped.  Told the story.  

Retribution is not fun and I can't make this up

 I can't even write down all that happened yesterday.  Here are the highlights

Parent came in mad with other teacher. Demanded one on one aide. Admin did not support

Resource teacher and staff complained to principal nothing was being done by aides

Staff told lies about what had happened in the room while I was gone.

They took away from help from the child that was helping me that was mentally ill

I had to sit in a meeting with all principals and tell my side of the story and I put everyone under the bus

Resource teacher contacted district about the incident

Child was hurt at recess while I was gone in the impromptu meeting

Students were not called on by proper people admin said 

Room was left a mess after I cleaned it up

Still only one doing bathroom

I have to call parent or parents about stuff.  Admin won't deal with parens

I breathe on you HS, your strength comes suddenly and your peace completely

If I am appropached today I will ask to be on janitoral, lunch duty or paper sorting duty for the reminder of the year.