I am grateful

 Yesterday I know it was the spirit of God that told me to plan for a snow day.  I am so glad I did when 10 happened and I was asleep for a few hours I did not have to plan.  Then I wake this morning and they completely changed the plan but fortunately the Lord had a template I could use for instruction. God has given me the gift of organizing online learning so easily.  I am so thankful for so much.    I know that these things are not coincidences but gifts from the Lord.  May I never tire of seeing God's hand when things are just plain crazy.  Guess I am getting some housework done and a smoothie will be in my future at 8:30 at the new smoothie shop.  

The other problems I will lead on the back burner.  I am so glad God is in change. 

That is It

 Today I went out of my room and the painter had taken down over half that I had put up less than two weeks.  This was more than stuff up and taken down it was like again my world had been shaken.  

Two days ago my other teacher in the room tried to get me into trouble.  She proceeded to take an hour and a half lunch and we are only given a 40 minute lunch.  

I get in trouble for something I did not do.  I keep on getting blamed for stuff that I could think was me but really it was someone else.

Who is in Charge

 Today I had an opportunity where I shot off my mouth.  It almost got me into some heavy duty trouble.  I did keep my cool and kept with the blabber where she tried to rat me out.  Next year if I have an aide I will be more vocal.  And I won't be afraid of my new admin.

Proverbs 17:18  New International Version
Even fools are thought wise if they keep silent, and discerning if they hold their tongues.

Shooting off my Mouth

 Friday I was a complete basket case.  First I found out my amazer was leaving.  I tried to do the right thing but no matter what I seem to do it is never enough.  I shot my mouth off when my boss tried to accuse me  of doing something I had not done.  My co teacher in the room shot her mouth off to my boss.  I found out she heard what I said.  I had been trying so hard to stay out of drama, not listen to gossip and not have an opinion on anything.  Then I found out we have to completely change up our learning in just a few days since the Covid cases are rising.  What a drama with my superintendent looking for anyone who disagreed with her regarding going to teaching on the computer.  

I thought about what I needed to do which was impossible in just two days to get my parents ready to do this.  

Ecclesiastes 5:2

The Message

2 Don’t shoot off your mouth, or speak before you think.
Don’t be too quick to tell God what you think he wants to hear.
God’s in charge, not you—the less you speak, the better.

I am learning to just think before I speak and quickly learning who and whom I can trust.  It is so sad to work in a toxic world where people talk behind your backs, tell your secrets, and are only out for themselves.  It is such a toxic situation where trust is violated, people who fail are blamed and people seem to revel in ours faults.   I am learning to just keep my mouth shut, pray for others who are struggling and keep going with people who constantly change their mind.

I am looking at this remote situation where I have to teach after break without students as a blessing.  God works in mysterious ways.  Initially it will be some work but I know that I can with His help succeed and maybe a bad situation where there is toxicity I can move from it and be in my little pod and just do me and my class.  

Dog returns to it's vomit

 Proverbs 26:11 talks about a dog returning to its vomit and a fool returning to folly.  The longer I am a teacher the more I realize the more I don't know.  I refuse to do life as before.  Lord help me not be the fool today. 

Strong means Hard and Rigid

 New International Version

Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD.

I looked up several versions, Strongs and some commentaries and what struck me today is that I need to be tough, hard and rigid.  Sometimes in the storm it means being that way.  Lord help me be that way in all situations. 

Enemies at Peace With Me

 Proverbs 16:7

When I am trying to please God He makes even my worst enemies to be at peace with me.

I am currently in a place where everyone is trying to get everyone else in trouble.  It is quite toxic.  I  would love to see someone get theirs but I am learning that this is not the best way.  My attitude needs to be one of peace and concern.  Even when things work out that I am able to leave Illinois School or those who have given me problems leave I need to be a person of peace.  Jesus let me see my troubled students and my enemies as you see them as people who need You.