Eroding from the Inside

 I am thankful for God's protection of things I see and what I do not see.  Also if I retired next year or the year after it would be less.  I just wish I knew where I am supposed to be.  I still pray that I will know where I am going to be. 

Blessings

 I am remembering the blessings of yesterday.  First I got through to my retirement line fast which had been unable to for a week.  Then I got done my evals.  My rascals Rayan and Mohammad showed me that they liked me by choosing me and then I think I got my testing done with Mohammad.  I also kept my cook when my aide was loosing it.  I can't change others but I can change myself using Christ as my main source of power. 

crazy

It seems like more and more crazy. Since Tony was fired we have had crazy more and more.  Staff getting stressed the foolishness and more dysfunctional situation. 

Retirement Ready

 I found out today I can retire.  That is good news.  The bad news is that it is really small but the good news is I can.  

Youre Fired

 Well I thought I would not get tenure, go on a remediation plan but instead I was not having my contract renewed.  

It is hard but I have not had time to really cry.  I updated my resume.  Sent info to my references to ask for their permission again.  I sent out some feelers for jobs.  Waiting is the hard part of the process but maybe the job I am supposed to have is not even available yet. 

Monday was okay.  I was able to keep my head and even had a few good lessons.  Why can't I learn the lessons ahead of time.  But it is okay.

Yesterday one of my students needed some advice.  I took my time and the Lord showed me what to do.  God is good. 

When I should be falling apart God is sustaining me.  Thank you Lord. 

More winks

 Yesterday after school mom read a devotional on Psalms 37.  It was just what I needed.  Then I went to the Ice Cream Fundraiser.  I prayed before I went in.  It was so neat.  I  sat with my student and his dad.  It was cool because I did not have to deal with the admin and teachers.  I did stop by afterwards and did some quick chit chat.  Thank you Lord for your help

More Winks

 I am learning about realizing my more winks.  I am not sure if I will have a job next year but I am grateful for someone who cleans up my mess.  I pray I can be a light, ask for forgiveness for my mistakes and accept what I can't understand.