Last ten minutes

 It never ceases to amaze me how when you are the most exhausted  things can go sideways.  I was super tired after putting out all myself.  So I decided to let the chips fall where they may.  It was crazy.  My aide totally freaked out.  My other aide went home early and no one really backed me up.  I was quite discouraged but determined that it is not about me but how the Lord is going to handle it.  Suddenly after some pep talks from my mom and hubby I am finally okay.  I can't change others but I can allow God to show me what to do. 

Creativity

 Today was a pretty good day.  I got a lot done and the kids were pretty good as a whole.  I have been working on some workouts and an article on Nerodivergent LL.  Thank you Lord for helping me be creative and getting to use my talents and abilities. 

What if I just did not care

 Today my silent enemy was helping out at kids church.  Everything she had to have a hand in.  It was initially frustrating but then I realized I used to be that girl who had to get into everything.   I am learning to just be and then I realize things go so much better and without stress.  I asked the Lord to forgive me for my pride, give up my people pleasing ways and just be.  When I finished my portion of the lesson one of the teens gave me a big smile.  That felt so good.  I am so thankful!

Thank you Lord

 The last few days back at school have been good.  Also I feel confident about about eval I have next week.  I see where the hand of God has been so helpful!  Life is not perfect but I am learning a lot. 

Grateful 2026

 I would say that this vacation with the hubs has been the best in our 28 years of marriage.  I am grateful for so much!  As I turn to go to work again I realize that I am going to not take things so seriously and I literally could walk away from this point forward.  

I am changing.  Pacing is not so important to me.  I am walking, running for me.  

And I know that the Lord has been with me before and He will be with me again. 

 

Scary Things to Brave

 It has been quite a week.  I went to a wake I was nervous about going to.  It was my boss.  Then today a new gyno.  Answers to my questions.  A possibility that I might be able to eventually enjoy sex.  A way I could avoid being in pain during an exam.  I am grateful.  I remember that if I was able to go through theses things I can do others.  Thanks Lord!

that explains a lot

Yesterday I  did lunch with Diane.  It is a blessing and I am glad I can do it.  Had a good walk today.  

Last week I was thinking about the certified meeting.  It was interesting because my co teacher came in all swearing and mad.  It explains why she does what she does.