leader

I am learning that being  a leader even when the obvious is not so obvious. 

full moon maybe?

Yesterday was just plain weird.   It started with lesson in kids church going sideways.   Then the pastors quilted Mike into another service. Lack of structure in both services then this morning with the crazy call where the parent was calling me rascit and then maiden had say lies that I did not hear.   To the crazy with my admin picking out small details in my lap. 

Lean Unto the Lord

 I woke up Saturday at midnight and could barely walk.  My butt and leg were all messed up and I threw up all over the kitchen table.  I realized my body finally said enough stress.  You need to take it easy.  

I heard a fantastic message from Charles Stanley on love.  I need to quit trying on my own and just relying on the Lord more than ever before.  I guess the last few days had really stressed me out.  

My internal is not lying up with the external and frankly I am not sure how much more I can take.

I need the Lord's help to take the people pleasing away and just let things happen.  

Happy Things

 Today Mohammad gave me a hug unexpectantly.  And I was able to be flexible in so many ways.  Thanks Lord for helping me be aware of happy things. 

Final Straw

 I have been doing pretty good with no help on so many things in my new position.  Today though I kind of dropped the ball on a small detail.  My principal called me and told me that I needed to do things better and that I should do things right so I don't have a call from her.  Last week the vice iditot called me on the carpet for stupid stuff. 

I have had a least 20 things I have quietly tried to fix and did not send a call that they had not done wrong.  

I am deternmined to do things right this year but I will be making a lateral transfer.  Today was the final straw.

Attitude but Prayer

 Yesterday I did kids church.  My two charges showed up.  I kept them busy and personally they sat pretty well.  There were other kids being bad but I realized I could only do so much.  I also caught some kids causing problems and also trying to steal.  It just shows me I need to pray.  For for Pastor Michael and also for the kids.  I can't change others but I can change myself.  Also the charges were better behaved.  I am thankful. 

Need to Pray

 Yesterday I watched my husband's pastor preach.  He declared to the crowd his political officiation, what they should not be and frankly got super political.  I decided instead of having an attitude to pray.

Today I think my game went pretty well.  But the service I would say most of the kids were not listening and then new kids we had were trying to steal, cause havic.  I don't want to be profiling but these new kids we have been getting are really causing problems and PM can't really do anything about it because we are stepping on egg shells with them.

I again need to pray.

I could really let the situations give me a bad attitude toward Stone but I choose to let prayer be my aim.