The opportunity of handling things better, doing somethings well and learning to let go of my ego

 Today was a mix of lots of different feelings.  First we were one staff short.  That always effects everyone and then still being down one person adds to it.  My assistant supervisor who loves to find stuff wrong with me just showed up with no warning etc.  I was engaged and fortunately I was able to pivot to the right things.  I watch myself and I see where the Lord has given me wisdom for this time in my life.  

I am starting to gel with Noah our MI kid, Ava my TBI and MI kid.  Then we had a sick kid and the parents refused to pick him up.  Finally after a call from the nurse they picked him up.  In the midst of it my staff was mad because they did not want to get sick.  Frankly I did not want to as well.

Then at the end of the day a parent was late.  They were mad I kept on texting them and did not appologize that they had arrived almost 45 minutes late.  And to top it off the kid who is normally pretty good was kind of bad and challenging me. 

Last night we had Reflect with EC and it was really good.  A very timely word   I am learning about the difference of what I am supposed to carry, what is not my responsibility and what the Lord will carry for me.  

I also joined a new E group and so we will see how that goes. 

The Challenge of Bouncing off you

 I am learning that when people attack me I need to differentiate whether the statement is valid.  Most of the time when it it not I need to just let stuff go.  It is difficult but I am learning

Making Bricks with No Straw

 I have been making bricks with no straw literally.  I have been doing testing with no help and basically figuring everything else with a back door.  

Also I am seeing that everyone is out to get each other.  I can't control others and how they go behind each others back but I can make sure I am not doing it.

Tomorrow is meeting number two. Such a waste on so many levels.  I hate meetings.  Then one on Friday. 

Learning from Being Overwhelmed

 Today it was a tough afternoon.  First I finally thought I had fixed the AIMS web problem.  Then we had the IEP meeting and at the end the LEA rep made me look really stupid.  All was well until the end of the day when I started testing one of the tough rascals.  She was really having a hard time and instead of respecting that the end of the day is not a good time for an unannoced visit I had to deal with a PDR and two statements of things I did wrong.  I stated I would not do those things again and admitted my faults.  Moving forward I will give responsibilities to others when it gets too hard and I will not ask for any help except for things that are absolutely necessary. 

Little VIctories

 It was another crazy day but also some good stuff.  I was able to control Ava today.  Noah was out of control but I kept my cool.  I worked with a student out of control.  And I had to do what I needed to do.

I had a nice day yesterday.  I did the race in three minutes later with more difficult conditions.

I was able to figure out the AIMs web testing.  I am truly blessed

Blessings Good and Preparation

 I am not sure what to title yesterday.  It was a mixure of different feelings. It was a tough day and there was lots of crazy.  First of all the SW and the BCBA did not know what they were doing.  The advice was just plain stupid and not at all what I know they are supposed to do.

I have two students with MI.  It is hard when they snap off instantly.  The one is physically threatening me, my class and my staff.   One student wants attention so desperately that they make bad choices so they get noticed.

I am trying with my student one to redirect and help her when she spazes out, the one student to ignore threats and the other praise him when he doing good.

The experts spent hours making a plan for the dangerous student.  They just sat back and wrote out a plan without any advice or direction from us.  The icing on the cake was when they one timer they set for the danger kid went off and they were so busy wasting their time on making this plan that they did not turn their own timer off.  And the funny thing is that the plan they spent hours was almost the same as the one I made in second ( All the Lord's doing) in five seconds.

Initially I was furious but then I remember I asked that the Lord would give US wisdom on how to handle this kid.  It does not matter who gets it but as I reflect on the plan I see where it was basically my idea and it is not important who gets the credit.

I also went to the Elevation Rhythm Concert last night.  It was so neat to see these young people worshipping.  What a blessing. I pray that I will remember what is worship and what is not.

Cheers to Positives

 Today I figured out my student Mohammad's sweet spot with music class.  DJ finally gelled to the chart and he found out that the joy of making his teacher happy.  I talked with a parent and I was able to not jump and just let nonsense fly.  

Today is Curriculum Night.  Always an adventure.