God's Help

 Thursday was a blur of victories.  I am so blown away.  First the dentist, no cavities, then the DMV with the positive drivers experience, passing my test.  Then I got to school picked up my stuff and went to Diane's.  

Friday I went to the pool and had a good session in the water.  It was like I had not left and I had more energy than before.  

I also got my mandated training done.  

Also I am learning about being content of places or paths closed

I put so much effort on my pacing.  It stressed me.  I worked so hard.  It was not worth it.

I put so much effort in worship team.  Not worth it when I can do all my talents on Kids church.

Last I am seeing that doors closed are okay.  I am learning to be content.

don't fall into crazy

 It has been a crazy ride these past few days.  I got my car back, my husband accidently tried to get a old tv outside and ended of busting it all the way to the garbage can.  

Positives today

Saw five bunnies on my run

Yesterday I saw ducks and bunnies

Passed what should of been 6 hours of required training in less than an hour

Went to the dentist and had a clean bill of health

Got an appointment at the DNV

Ding the light went on and more blessings

 Today my rental car low tire went on again. I am so thankful I was able to get a donut put on until Monday. 

Also I was reflecting my the MSPig incident last Sunday and I realized I was better off than before.  In kids ministry I can do all my talents and I don't have to please other men or Msps. Last I am thankful for a pastor and husband who accept me as I am

Contentment

 I have been slowly weaning myself off my medication.  So far I am just a bit more edgy but I am feeling more alive and that is good.  I have been praying more and being less self centered and more God centered.  

Today I was out running and I realized what a cool neighborhood I live in and all the stuff that is right under my nose that is pretty neat.  

Also saw more bunnies.  That is  always a blessing.  

School is starting soon.  Generally I am this basket case but this year is quite different.  I am just taking each day one at a time. And if I get stressed I need to just let life be.

Thank you Lord for helping me be happy even in a bit of boredom.  

Scary Stuff

 Today I found out I might have the rental car till August1st.  Kind of scary but grateful for the car.  My tire was also low.  I figured out how to pump it up.  Hopefully it will stay at 35.  

I had a nice SC and tried out my new kicks.  Not sure if I am keeping them but it has been a journey.  

Thinking through for the fall.  I need to take each day at a time.  Also still weaning myself off the meds.  I need wisdom in all that. 

I can't change others but I can change me.

Blessings from Disasters

 Today I hit someone witth my car.  It was quite a dent but surprisingly it worked out.  I knew what to do.  Kept my cool, got the loaner car and the repair started within two hours.  I disappointed though I wish my hubby had been more supportive.

But I am learning that blessings can be handling things on my own, learning from my mistakes, and being grateful for the following things

The guy I hit was not upset.  He even appologized.  

The cop got there fast and did what she needed to do.

I was able to get in for my repair and got a rental car.  I was able to get my ring which I had been putting off checked.

I can't control others but when I rely on God things have a way of working themselves out.

Blessings

 Today I saw four bunnies outside.  The weather was nice.  I was able to hopefully have my glass problem fixed, got the candy I want for races.  Got a gift for my dad and a good message from Pastor Furtick.