Contentment

 I have been slowly weaning myself off my medication.  So far I am just a bit more edgy but I am feeling more alive and that is good.  I have been praying more and being less self centered and more God centered.  

Today I was out running and I realized what a cool neighborhood I live in and all the stuff that is right under my nose that is pretty neat.  

Also saw more bunnies.  That is  always a blessing.  

School is starting soon.  Generally I am this basket case but this year is quite different.  I am just taking each day one at a time. And if I get stressed I need to just let life be.

Thank you Lord for helping me be happy even in a bit of boredom.  

Scary Stuff

 Today I found out I might have the rental car till August1st.  Kind of scary but grateful for the car.  My tire was also low.  I figured out how to pump it up.  Hopefully it will stay at 35.  

I had a nice SC and tried out my new kicks.  Not sure if I am keeping them but it has been a journey.  

Thinking through for the fall.  I need to take each day at a time.  Also still weaning myself off the meds.  I need wisdom in all that. 

I can't change others but I can change me.

Blessings from Disasters

 Today I hit someone witth my car.  It was quite a dent but surprisingly it worked out.  I knew what to do.  Kept my cool, got the loaner car and the repair started within two hours.  I disappointed though I wish my hubby had been more supportive.

But I am learning that blessings can be handling things on my own, learning from my mistakes, and being grateful for the following things

The guy I hit was not upset.  He even appologized.  

The cop got there fast and did what she needed to do.

I was able to get in for my repair and got a rental car.  I was able to get my ring which I had been putting off checked.

I can't control others but when I rely on God things have a way of working themselves out.

Blessings

 Today I saw four bunnies outside.  The weather was nice.  I was able to hopefully have my glass problem fixed, got the candy I want for races.  Got a gift for my dad and a good message from Pastor Furtick.  

RESPECT

 Today I did kids church.  I am pleased to say that the kids were pretty engaged.  They had good input and seemed to get what I was saying.  I did notice though someone in my past that walked out when I was teaching.  It seemed to make him mad that a woman was teaching.  All I was doing is kids ministry which I essentially do six days a week.

I can't change others but I can change myself. 

Crazy, a beginning to an end, and blessings

 Today was a mixture of blessings and crazy.  First I had some blessings like SC, getting my glasses fixed, getting my pizza on, finding cheap crafts for the fall, and getting back to life.  I can't change others but I can change my perspective.

My sister in law called me again.  I think she is going to share my niece's alternative lifestyle.  But when I told her my availablity she stated she was going  on vacation and that it would have to wait till the end of the month.  It makes me so angry that after I have done all to be nice it just blasts again and again.  I give it to you God. 

Allowing whose in charge to be in charge

 I had a few situations where the younger helpers in kids church tried to take over in situations including mine.  I initially  was upset because I felt they were not being respectful.  Then I thought about a few times I tried to help Pastor Michael and instead was trying to take over.  

Having staff who actually want to work has been a game changer for me.  I am learning when to allow them to help me even if it is not how I would do it and then stepping up when I need to.

I am learning it is better I allow Pastor Michael to fail and also to let him deal with the situation the way he feels is best.  

I can't change others but I can change how I approach things.

Yesterday Mike announced to me that I needed to take his car in for repairs.  I don't have to wait but take it in.  Initially I was mad because it had been a problem that had been going on for months and I felt it was not fair that I had to clean up his mistake.  But then I thought about it.  Really it is not a big deal.  I am off and also able to help him out.  And actually there is tons of stuff I can do around here in the house.