This weekend was a series of connecting the dots. I realized with the music ministry that I was not supposed to be a part of something I did not agree with.
Second I was out at SC and the bugs were awful. I thought about the small stuff I could pray about and instantly I had no bug issues.
I am learning a lot this summer. So many things you get blamed for and actually it is not your fault.
Good fun this morning. Beat my time by 3 minutes.
Yesterday I had a good run. I felt funny running into the former peeps but honestly I am glad I am not longer coaching for the marathon. Mike and I went shopping and I finally got fitted at VS. It was kind of depressing but I think instead of getting upset with the thirty pounds I need to lose but love myself right now where I am at and strive for better.
I have been dealing with non comparison a lot lately. Today at SC was no exception. I ran into someone from my past twenty years ago. The school I left was such a failure time for me. But in retrospect i realize how I needed to leave to appreciate what I now have.
As I was leaving she was telling how she was just a newbie to climbing. I know for a fact she has been doing it for a while.
I can't change others and as I go into church where I could easily be a failure I look at all the opportunities I get in kids church and how it is a safe place.
I even see with my oldest friend that things are not the same. I decide to look at the positives like serving, knowing who I am in Christ and I realize that the most productive days are truly ahead.
I talked to someone on the phone today. They had been listening to various music and were quite critical.
I was at work and it is never good enough for this and that. But I make the choice to do my best and not worry about perfection.
I can't control others but with the Lord's help I can change me.
Today we found out who won the gnome contest. It is such a popularity contest. Also I am seeing some people have to be all that just to over compensate, I am thankful for protection on my way home with someone who got hit just moments before I got there. Helping out my friend to get more business to someone who needed a handyman. Bronson and I hung out and I figured out he was really struggling with attention and his parents who are overwhelmed with divorce.
