The last few days I have finally figured it out. I need to be invisible at all times. I need to not search for good jobs and just do what I do.
I need to treat people with respect and think about how what I say will effect them. I need to take people aside and just talk to them. I need to honestly find what sparks someone's morale without giving them empty or junk to reward them.
It is hard to be a boss. Lord help me be a good one.
I did some work for summer school and instead of being praised I got called on the carpet for stuff that really is not a mistake. I also had to deal with stupid negativity.
I chose to not go overboard on stuff. Offer a little as possible and just do my own thing as long as it does not hurt my students.
I can't change others but I can me.
Today was a lot of blessings. I talked with the care team at Elevation and will be starting this in July. Also it was a beautiful day for graduation and I had a lovely group to walk back with. When we went to the baseball game we were one of the few with awuning and missed the rain. Also I have slept well the past few days. Tomorrow is a mellow running day and I might add Swallow Cliff to the mix.
I even had three kids and four adults tell me I looked nice in my dress. Good stuff.
I also faced my fear of going the Crap in the Box kit and taking it to UPS. I can't change others but with the Lord he can change me.
I am so thankful for all the times for God's protection. I can't change others but God can help me be the best I can be. And to see where my gifts are.
Today was a series of more winks. Bronson is continuing to learn to teach asl, Feda and I had some good girl time in the bathroom, Nusaymah has been coming out of her shell, Mya loving to kid around, Karlie and I enjoying lunch and even starting to figure out Nick with his outbursts. Also I did a story and had the students draw key parts. Good things are happening. I hope I get to keep my class.
God is working in the hubs life. Two situations where he thought others before himself.
Yesterday I got on my bike after a three year delay. It was scary, I need to lower the seat, the tires need inflating, I fell off when I stopped but I did it with only sore muscles and a few bruises.
Today Mike helped me put some stuff in the car. That was a first.
I had something that could of been a mess but I did not have to clean it up.
I also got asked to be a leader for Elevation. I am looking forward to learning about leadership and my relationship with God.
I am so accepting of my flock at work. Adults and the children but when I get home to the hubs I am less understanding. Yesterday he got lost and we ended up getting to church late. I told him to take 80 but he was determined to do things his own way. We got home and things were not working smoothly. Again I felt like I was with a temper tantrum child.
I did not handle it well and stressed ate the rest of the time. I can't change others but I can continue to ask God how to handle people. Whether family or work.
