As I reflect on yesterday I remember that God knew yesterday would come. He knew everything would explode and that I would be in the middle of this big mess. But it is one I can learn from and then work on making it work.
Ultimately I know that the Lord is in control of all and that it was not a surprise to him stuff happened. I am getting the people pleaser out of my system and I am walking with purpose.
Today was just plain awful. My one aide was just had it for me and my friend. Then I had to talk to a HR counselor. It was so embarrassing and I asked for help and I was made to feel like a fool. I am so thankful I am NOT going to have a classroom next year. I am determined to be honest in my dealings. I trust God that I will continue to be employed and that the Lord has his hand on me.
Please bring justice God.
I came in today and things went from bad to worse. First my paperwork that was to be done was not. Then I got cornered with everything and then there were lies and lies on me. I shared what had happened with my boss and she did a Freudian slip and told me the person in the wrong she was going to appolgize to. I also got knocked for stuff that was not my fault. Moving forward I will do summer and the the floating thing but when I get old enough I think it will be time to be done. I am done.
I am grateful for a mom who listens, a prayer group that prays, Super bunnies, a nice house to live in, that I could see my words were no use, and that there are only two days left.
Yesterday was just awful. Two of my staff were gone. The one left was mad she actually had to work. My SLP was trying to get dirt on others and I am stuck making the day as smooth as possible with people cancelng out and acting like they were in preschool.
Today I had my E group. I realized I was not alone in the things of God and how one year later my life is so much better.
Today will be hard. Staff will continue to be difficult. I will stand up for myself.
I saw some things at SC today that were pretty weird. I prayed for them . Then a police officer purposely kept the light on red on the way home so catch some red lighters. Life is pretty weird.
Calling mom after I get off work is a bad idea. I am stressed and I just need to chill with the Lord.
Worrying about how I appear to parents is dumb especially if they are not going to be seen again.
I need to prepare kids for the stations before all the hoopla comes. I need to not get upset at people doing wrong things. I can't control a husband who is having a tantrum, someone who leaves half day, or someone who does not come to work and expects me to do her job and mine.
I prayed before I reacted with one of my staff, I encouraged my staff to pray instead of complain, I ignored stupid and kept on teaching and last thought about what I would do different next time.
I kept my ear placed to small voices from the HS.
Thank you Lord for putting me in the right place at the right time.
