Crazy but

 I have been praying for a way to get Ava up when she plops.  The Lord showed me having her sit on a chair and then either going forward or backward she will go back to the room.  It has been a challenge with these two beloved rascals.  Ava likes to bolt and make a mess,  Malyasia just likes making a mess.  The next six days I will just focus on them and forget about other stuff.  Second I will pray the peace of Jesus constantly.  Third I will remember that I have been put in a crappy situation.  You don't put a druggie working at a pharmacy or a overweight person at a candy store.  

I got my loaner yesterday when I took my car in to get the engine light repaired.  The people were very nice.  I am thankful for getting my car repaired for free when I was the ding a ling who put diesel in the gas tanks.

Last my group leader sent a testimony I did for More than Able.  It went with the sermon.  I am thankful for the response and continuing to pray what I should do with Elevation. 

Stuff

 Over the weekend I got to sing the national anthem and had an incredible service at Elevation.  I want to so make the jump but I feel that the every other week is the answer right now.  

Yesterday it was decided that I would be in my friend's room but later I was put in the older sped room.  That was a problem because my rascal is quite the handful.  So I was totally unhelpful to my student but I got through it.  

This morning I woke up to You Say and God is on the Throne.  I also in the last days got a prayer warrior praying for me.  I am so blessed.

I feel like the others won but I only have 7 days left.  

Today

 I left school early today.  I was verbally threatened by my co idiot and went from bullying me to yelling at me in front of students.  

I went to the office.  Lost it and got prayed for.  Got a word from the Lord and put everyone under the bus.  

Talked to the director of sped.  Told the story.  

Retribution is not fun and I can't make this up

 I can't even write down all that happened yesterday.  Here are the highlights

Parent came in mad with other teacher. Demanded one on one aide. Admin did not support

Resource teacher and staff complained to principal nothing was being done by aides

Staff told lies about what had happened in the room while I was gone.

They took away from help from the child that was helping me that was mentally ill

I had to sit in a meeting with all principals and tell my side of the story and I put everyone under the bus

Resource teacher contacted district about the incident

Child was hurt at recess while I was gone in the impromptu meeting

Students were not called on by proper people admin said 

Room was left a mess after I cleaned it up

Still only one doing bathroom

I have to call parent or parents about stuff.  Admin won't deal with parens

I breathe on you HS, your strength comes suddenly and your peace completely

If I am appropached today I will ask to be on janitoral, lunch duty or paper sorting duty for the reminder of the year. 

Last 10 days

 

It has been quite the ride lately.  First of all I eneded up teaching most of the morning yesterday.  I am so thankfuul because things actually went well.  Thank you Lord for building up my confidence.  Today I started the meeting and kids went out of control.  The resource teacher who is not part of our class reprimanded the rest of the teachers to actually help.  The co teacher responded by basically doing the meeting again. I am thankful for my kid in my room who is 10 and is basically a better helper than the adults in my room.  Today has been hard but with the grace of God I am muddling though and the admin is starting to see what I am dealing with.  I can't wait till I tell the kids it is time for recess.  The other teacher says they can't go but I checked and I can take whoever I want.  So thankful

In the Middle God is Able

 I  am in the middle of transition but I am thankful I don't walk alone. 

I have been blessed by Elevation Church's ministry for the past few years.  But as I have been faithfully watching the messages I felt led to get more involved.  I have recently started going to a Watch Party a few times a month.  In that time Elevation Worship has had so many songs that have ministered to me.  One is More than Able.  I have had a difficult year at my job and I have had to make the transition. This is not easy for a 55 year old and I always thought I would just retire there.  All kinds of crazy stuff has happened but I kept on trusting God, claiming the worship songs including More than Able and going on job interviews.  The last interview I went on I visited where the interview would occur.  I wanted to make sure I would know where it is.  As I was leaving the site the song came on More than Able.  A few weeks later I was offered the job that had lots of candidates.  I honestly thought I did not have a chance.  And last week I visited my future school and see that I will be where God wants me to be.  Everyday at my current employment I am constantly bullied, harassed and blamed for others mistakes but now I have a future to look forward to.  I love teaching and working with special needs children but if I continued there I probably would have been burned out.  Thank you Elevation Worship, the writers and Pastor Steven for doing this song.  It has been literally my life line and I am glad through it I am reminded that I have a hope and a future. Because of the  ministry of Elevation Church I am confident that I will be able to teach and work with children longer than the negative environment I am currently in.   God is truly able. 

Opposite World

 Yesterday I visited the school I am going to be at this summer and next year.  It was incredible.  Everything I had tried to do this year unsuccessfully was being done there.  There is so much opportunity to be creative.  And  there seems like a better life and work balance.  So different than the rest of this year.  I need to be positive at my current job but I need to remember that I know what is best and no matter how others see me they don't have to get it.

I am still open to facing up to my mistakes but gaslighting is not acceptable anywhere.