Confusing yet Content

 

This is such a wierd time.  I brought over my stuff to my new school.  I was welcomed.  I went back to the old school.  It was empty and no goodbyes.  Then I had a plan to set up my room.  At the last minute it is changed.  

Yesterday was a wedding.  Had not been to one in so long.  I ended up sitting at the top dog table.   Then today I watched worship.  No life.  

Then I call my parents and my dad is telling me I should only go to adult church.  

My husband is upset because he is having to do more than normal stuff at work. 

I feel so torn about the summer doing summer school.  I want to leave my old position so much.  I don't want to mess up my job.

There is a time to enjoy life in the midst of crazy.  

Two Places

 It was the last day at my current school year at the awful school.  I had a few things fall and I watched two times how the persons did not bother to get out of their vehicle to help.  In fact the one was more upset than I was when stuff went all over.  

Now my old school I used to teach at.  Everyone was helping with doors, kind words of welcome and smiles.  Not one person except the one I went to say goodbye to told me goodbye.  Such a fitting ending to a crazy year.  

In their spirit

 Today I preached at kids church.  I really felt like the message was mine own.  I could see the kids whose spirit it was touching.  How cool is that. Jesus you are so good.

I can now see why

 Wow what  a week.  The kids are just off the wall and on Monday they were just crazy.  And then all the confusion at work.  I am thankful I am moving and can already see what trials have made me ready for the future.  

I see the blessings everyday.  From revelations for the Bible lesson I am doing today to the mother and her ducklings .  

I am ready to move my stuff over.  I am thankful for getting rid of so much stuff.  I am thankful for therapy and for the medication.

And some of the unanswered prayers with starting to know why.  

Gaslighting, Praying, Miracles

 Well I found out finally I am going to kindergarten at Arcadia the dream school.  But it has been a ride with the ups and down.  The gaslighting with the new teacher coming in and trying to reclaim my personal items.  But I am thankful for the Prayers answered from little blessings on the run like lilacs, beautiful scenery and wisdom beyond my abilities.  

Gaslighting, Purging, Spring Cleaning

 I have been doing a lot of spring cleaning this week at home and at work.  I got rid of over 20 bags of stuff at work and it feels so good.  I am determined with God's help to only bring to my new job assignment 50 to 75 boxes verses the 100 plus I did five years ago.  

I also finished up my last class for the special rec.  It is sad to say good bye but what has transpired this season shows me in more ways than one it is time to leave.

I am also not pacing this year for the marathon.  I am sad but mostly glad because it was another responsibility and usually by the end I was so done.  

Purging in my spiritual and physical life.  It feels good.

I am not happy right now with some situations like work, ministry, my physical body but I am glad I am not where I used to be.  Time for change. 

Trust God not self

 Yesterday I really had to rely on the Lord.  The program I was helping with I could see some possible incidents.  But somehow I was the only one who saw it.  I know nothing is an accident.