Who I am as a teacher

 Who Am I as teacher

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Christina Chapan

Wed 3/2/2022 4:04 AM

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I am a follower of Christ.  I am pretty fast to do what he wants me to do.

I am a diserner.  

I know when something is not right and if it is in my sphere of influence I quickly change it.

I am willing to wait for the real thing instead of cubic zirconia

I am a trier.  When something does not work I change it. 

I am a resourcer.  I surround myself with people and ideas that will help me and others.

I am a flexible.  When something does not work I change it or find where I can change it.  I am quickly blessed when something is not my style or way.  I am learning to walk away from frivolous and foolish things.

I am a singer.  Even ordinary academic songs can be annointed and change the absomousphere.

I am a mover.  I move to change others, help them change their lives and connect concepts that cannnot be changed any other way.

I am a child of God.  Imperfect but I know God has a plan for me anyway. 

Ups and Downs of Transition

 I have been really trying to do my best during my time of transition.  I try so hard to be kind, thoughtful, firm methodically and then something happens and my good job is torched to the ground.  Today at at work had to give a greeting to my boss.  Then out of all the things she could of said she used my kinders as the blabber mouths.  This is crazy.

Today I was told I needed to talk to a principal.  She was too busy to deal with an unhappy parent and some real foolishness in class.  

I know I do a good job.  I am different than most teachers.  I generally don't lose my cool but through the heavy duty of kids not parented from their kids, probably a lot of undignosed sped parents, I am doing the absolute I can.  

Today I did get a dropbox load of great music today.  I know God sees.

Little Winks from God

 Yesterday I found some little winks from God.  First of all I did a object lesson and I was prepared but the Lord helped me say things that were not originally in the message.  I initially had an attitude towards some kids, their parents and my pastor and I changed my perspective when I saw things in a different light.  Despite being in a toxic situation I realize that the Lord is using my situation to grow me up and get me ready for the next thing.  I wish I knew what next year holds but I need to be patient and just do excellence in the situation I am in now.

Frustrated with the Foolishness

 Yesterday I sat in a pointless meeting.  I watched as people were struggling to find  resources to help their students and just spending money foolishly.  I had the answers and it was my own cash and no one seemed to care.  I finished up the day and thought with the impending weather I better have a plan in case they cancelled school.  It was a fairly quick process but with not having a break that day, challenging students I was pretty knocked out. I was ready for the next remote day or so I thought.  It probably also did not help that I am in the midst of starting new meds.  At 6:30 we got a call about stupid Covid tests from the school.  It was like they were playing on my nerves that school was truly going to be cancelled.  At 10 PM they decided to close the school.  I woke up after a few hours of sleep and it took everything for me to go back to bed.  Then I wake up and get ready for my day.  They constantly changed their plan.  I emailed parents.  I contacted parents.  I looked like a fool having to change my plans and then less than a half an hour from go time the district decided to go on Google classroom and not go live.  I got some pretty ignorant messages that they were not pleased or the work I had provided at the last minute.  Funny thing is the parents that complained the most have the most challenging kids.  OM Goodness you have to spend a day with your kid and I don't get to babysit them as normal.  I tried to be nice and direct them to the district.  It should be interesting how I get in trouble tomorrow for again something that is not my fault.  Something has to give.  This stupid can't go on much longer. 

I am thankful that I can see how I was prepared the best I could.  I am thankful I did not lash out at the parents.  I am thankful I had a plan within a plan.  It blew my mind how foolish the kids acted with the whole day.  I need to rethink this whole remote thing for tomorrow if they call off school.  Who would of thought bus drivers would be the ones who allow us to have a break from covering other people's absences.  Crazy right

I am grateful

 Yesterday I know it was the spirit of God that told me to plan for a snow day.  I am so glad I did when 10 happened and I was asleep for a few hours I did not have to plan.  Then I wake this morning and they completely changed the plan but fortunately the Lord had a template I could use for instruction. God has given me the gift of organizing online learning so easily.  I am so thankful for so much.    I know that these things are not coincidences but gifts from the Lord.  May I never tire of seeing God's hand when things are just plain crazy.  Guess I am getting some housework done and a smoothie will be in my future at 8:30 at the new smoothie shop.  

The other problems I will lead on the back burner.  I am so glad God is in change. 

That is It

 Today I went out of my room and the painter had taken down over half that I had put up less than two weeks.  This was more than stuff up and taken down it was like again my world had been shaken.  

Two days ago my other teacher in the room tried to get me into trouble.  She proceeded to take an hour and a half lunch and we are only given a 40 minute lunch.  

I get in trouble for something I did not do.  I keep on getting blamed for stuff that I could think was me but really it was someone else.

Who is in Charge

 Today I had an opportunity where I shot off my mouth.  It almost got me into some heavy duty trouble.  I did keep my cool and kept with the blabber where she tried to rat me out.  Next year if I have an aide I will be more vocal.  And I won't be afraid of my new admin.

Proverbs 17:18  New International Version
Even fools are thought wise if they keep silent, and discerning if they hold their tongues.