Face Value

 Today was a day where I really could of gotten ticked off several times.  The specifics are not important but instead of getting frustrated I just took things as face value.  Much better way to handle life. 

Blessings

 Today I was on my walk and I found this perfect stool for my classroom.  This morning I found the exact type of video I was looking for my students.  I listened to a singer who sang the songs I needed.  None of it cost anything.  God supplies blessings.

Changing My Perspective

 I  met with my current admin and they were mentioning something about a boss I used to work for.  I realized the reason we did not get along is that he wanted to really push my students because he had deaf siblings.  Then she mentioned how well I did with Devaughn my autistic student.  Last I had someone come in and ask for prayer yesterday.  I am so glad I kept an open mind on things. 

Ups and Crazy this week

 Monday I started testing.  Devaughn came in and needed lots of attention.  Who knew that Monday would be his last day.

Tuesday I find out I can't test until May.  It throws my whole day  off and D does not show up.  I do not find out until Wed. he is not coming back.

Wed. I find out D is not coming back.  

Friday I find out I am losing my lazy aide.  But how it is presented is very unprofessional with all staff present and again my boss upset because she did not do her job she puts her job on the staff.

I get the Tonie and figure out how to use it.  

I catch my boss coming in late everyday and very short with me.  I find out I am not the only one and things are a mess everywhere.

I refuse to get involved in stupid but it does not help my day. 

Details of the meeting and things I should not do

 Well I went to the meeting and it was about the paras who are fooling around during the day.  I should of figured that out.  And the resource teachers were kind of stressed with the remote business so they complained to the sped ed dept about it.  So we were rewarded with a meeting at the last minute at our lunch.  No warning just a meeting.

Initially I was really frustrated with the whole situation.  I am so sick of dealing with stuff that is about others foolishness and I am being blamed for their laziness.

If I ever get to be a boss these are things I will not do.

1. Call people to the office over the intercom without saying what it is about.  Or just call them personally to the office with a bit of a warning.

2.  Deal with idiots not the whole group.

3. Not have other people do my work.

4. Always thank people specifically for the great things they do and make sure I have something valid to say to them.

5.  Take responsibility for stuff that is mine fault and maybe even take the blame initially for others.

6.  Specifically set a time for stuff and not just do it when I want but warn others what the whole meeting is about.

7.  Prepare staff for stuff and not just blind side them.

8.  Find somethings with substance that they do right and compliment them in the next day or so.

9.  Put your mouth where you promises or threats are and be willing not just say that you will do those things.

10.  Answer emails, texts and other stuff with answers even if it is okay.

11.  Write down and document immediately with email conversations that happened in the hall about work, staff related stuff.

I can't change others but I can change how I will deal with stuff.  It makes it a little easier for next time.

Last I think I will be planning to use all five of my personal days next year.  Mental health is important.

A chance to begin again even at the last minute

 Devaughn left Tuesday.  I am half and half about the situation.  I am glad I can focus on my other students but mad how it was done.  But I realized how I let a lot go because I was focusing on that one student.  Now I have the opportunity to fix what I messed up with situations beyond my control.  I can begin again even at the last minute. 

The Worst Case Scenero

 Today we have a meeting after school.  I am not sure what it is about for the special ed.  I hate the power trip of wondering what is coming up the pike.  I expect that there is a strong possibility I could be moved either this year or next year at this short date.  Initially it made me super nervous and my stomach is still super upset but I am remembering that if I am moved I am okay with that.  I saw God's hand on the former situation with my student and He will help me with this one.