Pause and Pray

My two big issues.  Over eating and also jealousy.  I will pause and pray. 

My new motto

I will make a decision to look at things from all angles.  When I am upset I will take a break and leave the feeling and emotion on the shelf.  I will plan my day but be flexible that life will happen and I need to roll with it.   I will look at challenges as opportunties to benefit my current and future self and embrace the ability to leave stuff in God's hands.

Proverbs 14:30 ESV / 910 helpful votes 

A tranquil heart gives life to the flesh, but envy makes the bones rot.

The ugly head of jealousy reared his head on Saturday when I went to my weekly meeting.  I was just waiting to be recognized but all that happened was that I am criticized when I made a mistake.   Initially I was angry but then I realized there is a purpose I am not recognized and that is okay.  

God is in charge of my successes and failures and He knows the paths that should be opened and what should be closed.

Jealous and Let Go

I sat in the teacher meeting so angry and jealous.  I was just waiting to get the news but it did not come.  I have changed my tune.  If it comes for certification I will be patient.  I am just thankful to be a part of the team.


I want to teach but I can't with an unhealthy situation.  I will allow God to work.  If I am supposed to do it I will get asked.  If not I will realize that ship has sailed.


Coaching for the marathon.  I let others irratants get to me.  I will set my boundaries and If I am to coach I will.

Instead of relying on Chris I will relay on Christ.

Saying No

Today was a day I had to say no twice.  First I had a parent who wanted me to change up my whole plan how I was communicating.  Then later my friend wanted me to go to a specific store to buy groceries.  I offered to but I won't risk my own health to get groceries because there is specific money and products.

JOY

Today I will ask if I question what would Jesus do?  I can't control what others think but I can step away and realize their reasoning and You or me how can I react today.

I am so glad...

I am so thankful I have been away from the drama of my school.  It was so difficult even though I did not get in the middle of much of it.  I learned through this whole experience that my decision to stay out of stuff was the best thing even though I felt it alientated myself from a lot of people. 

I also learned to pray more and ask for His wisdom.  It is easier to ask others for their opinion and better for God to be my advisor and vindicator.

Yesterday I almost fell into a gossip mess.  My friend who is not my aide was very helpful this week.  Then she kept on asking what my other aide was doing.  Really she was being pretty lazy.  But I did not complain.  Then suddenly I am hearing from my aide concerned because I had sent her several emails.  I have learned that it is okay not to answer every message from FB.  It is okay to not answer.  Sometimes it is the best thing.

But when the Holy Spirit prompts me to do something I need to do it.  I am slowly learning the difference between condemnation and conviction.