Saying No

Today was a day I had to say no twice.  First I had a parent who wanted me to change up my whole plan how I was communicating.  Then later my friend wanted me to go to a specific store to buy groceries.  I offered to but I won't risk my own health to get groceries because there is specific money and products.

JOY

Today I will ask if I question what would Jesus do?  I can't control what others think but I can step away and realize their reasoning and You or me how can I react today.

I am so glad...

I am so thankful I have been away from the drama of my school.  It was so difficult even though I did not get in the middle of much of it.  I learned through this whole experience that my decision to stay out of stuff was the best thing even though I felt it alientated myself from a lot of people. 

I also learned to pray more and ask for His wisdom.  It is easier to ask others for their opinion and better for God to be my advisor and vindicator.

Yesterday I almost fell into a gossip mess.  My friend who is not my aide was very helpful this week.  Then she kept on asking what my other aide was doing.  Really she was being pretty lazy.  But I did not complain.  Then suddenly I am hearing from my aide concerned because I had sent her several emails.  I have learned that it is okay not to answer every message from FB.  It is okay to not answer.  Sometimes it is the best thing.

But when the Holy Spirit prompts me to do something I need to do it.  I am slowly learning the difference between condemnation and conviction.

Switch 2

I am working on letting people just be people.  Instead of trying to figure out the what I am stepping back and controlling only what I can. As much as it is possible I will use my trying to figure out stuff and instead of find a way to navigate and be a blessing to others.


I have been learning the difference between condemnation and conviction.  I am slowly learning that I can't deal with others stuff but just mine.

Today I learned that I cannot change others but allow God to change me to say and do the right thing to change others whether they are a believer or not. \


Today I am going pause when I am stressed or hungry.  I am going to use the positive stress as a way to burn off energy and use it to positively create something.I

I had an opportunity to use my emotions today.  I got frustrated when people were not doing their job.  But I just prayed, vented and then did what I knew I needed to do and it seemed to work out.  I can't control stupid on others and really this new thing of communication it just like the meetings I had before.

Again taking the test of putting off hard things is okay and in the midsts of the trial keeping my head.  I will pause five minutes before making a decision and use my experiences that I had in the past connect new and challenging situations.

Forgive

I am learning in the midst of past and presents hurts I need to forgive.  If I do not I cannot grow as a person, change and most importantly be the woman of God I need to be.  I choose to forgive.  If I do my weight will continue to go down, I will grow and my creativity will skyrocket.  It is a process and I am so glad I can do this process everyday.

Emotional Eating

I am so thankful that I need to be more mindful of my eating.  I need to focus on the food and realize the difference between hunger and frustration.  I am full.  I do not need anything else in my mouth and watching tv while I eat defeats the purpose.

More Christians Than I Realized

Today I went to school and being Christian is a bit more accepted today with everything going on with the virus.  But I encountered two Christians today that I did not know existed.  If I am going to live my life I need to be more accepting and be out of my comfort zone. 

Hebrews 13:2

Do not forget to show hospitality to strangers, for by so doing some people have shown hospitality to angels without knowing it.