Assembly, Change of Perspective and Reasons Why

  Today was a day of finding out the reasons why.  First of all I have people in my life who do not like me.  They are responsible not me for their decision to not be happy.

Second I was dreading this assembly.  In the past it was used to make me and others feel bad.  But this year it was a different perspective.  I felt sorry for the people because they were living out their history in the past.  I am thankful God is allowing me to experience my present in the future.

Third I looked at my job with its challenges and realize that I was made to handle things that no one else could handle without the Lord.  I am grateful that the Lord gave me this opportunity to take what is an impossible task and make it possible.

Last I felt sad a month ago when what I thought I was hearing from God I did not get to do.  This has been happening quite frequently.  I learned today in a few situations even though they were great ideas it was okay it did not turn out. 

List of Crazy and the list of positives

Today I woke up an hour late.  That was okay but I was mad initially because I had my agenda.  Then I watched a great episode of JM and it reminded me that God was taking care of me.
Then I got into my car and went to work.  It was less than ideal with the snow, ice and drivers,   Then I got to work and a problem that was someone else's responsibility God helped me figure out. 

Then I found out that I have to basically document every detail to get help for the student I need. 

The old me would of got upset but I see that God sees justice.  This will work out for my good.

I am thankful for God's peace.

Know when to hold them. Know when to walk away.

I have been working with a toxic person and persons for a while.  It gets really draining to work with someone who wants to do it their way and mostly is just lazy.  But I am learning when to say something and when not to.

I am asking the Lord when to say something and when to keep my mouth shut.

As the great philosopher Kenny Rogers says...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7hx4gdlfamo

God's got your back

Despite the crazy at work I am grateful for so many things.  I am thankful for the Terry magazine lady who is giving me ones I can use for my student who likes to rip magazines.  It was not an accident I was at the library at that time to buy old magazines.

I am thankful Bobby who held my hand during baptism and usually is pretty unruly.

I am thankful for my dodgeball game going well at youth group.  Kept the junior highers engaged.  Bonus

I am thankful for my yoga class I am taking online.

I am thankful for my crazy student who acts crazy in front of all adults so it is not my fault.

I am thankful for keeping it together with my class even when my former boss tries to freak me out and catch me messing up.

I am thankful that the Lord is with me.

Proper Perspective

This is not my first rodeo with children making messes in my room.  But this is the first one where the child is throwing them at you and everyone is pointing their finger and wondering what I am doing wrong.  Also the children are viewing all of this. 

The last two days I have had to clean up messes that have taken quite a bit of time and my student not leaving the room has added two hours to my already regular day. 

I know why this is happening.  The child does not want to go to afterschool care.  She is allowed to do what she wants at home.  She is mad because she is not treated right at home.  My assistant is not doing her job and allowing me to fail. 

But then I drove home after an exhausting day.  I noticed someone whose car has stopped working in the middle of the road.  Later up the street there is a an accident blocking the traffic for almost four blocks. 

My mess of thrown equipment can be fixed and slowly taken out of reach.  But those things are more permanent.

I asked the Lord for an answer working with my aide.  I asked the Lord for help.  I am grateful for my bosses who all observed the situation. 

It is another opportunity to let God in his time allow us to see how to face a situation.

Trust In the Lord

My husband has been saying I have been too wimpy lately.  I prayed about it and realized that I am not the confrontational person.  But I do need to say something when it is not right.  Today I had this wonderful opportunity.  At least four times my aide was basically a jerk and I had to call her respectfully and without getting upset that she was being negative and that in the midst of the total situation I was doing my best.  If she did not like it she could speak to the principal and tell on me.   I was able to keep my peace and surprisingly the students did not see a thing.  When we speak under the annointing it is amazing the things that will happen.  Instead of this wonderful rehearsal we often play in the our minds prayer is much more effective.  I am praying for peace or that she is removed from my life.  In the mean time I am confident I can trust God in whatever comes my way. 

I am thankful

The last few days we have had some pretty cold weather.  I am learning though to be thankful.  I am thankful for a classroom that is too warm.  I remember when we did not have heat.  I am thankful for good cars.  Even though last summer the car repairs we expensive it paid now when my car even started with -23 temps.  I am thankful for gears that allow me to arrive safely.

I am thankful for hard things because I will handle them better next time.  I am thankful for broken appointments because I am learning that I can spend the time wisely and maybe I was not supposed to get together with that person in the first place.

Last I am thankful for salvation.  I have an eternal hope.